So when it rains it poors .. So no idea what's going on but I managed to piece together that my grandma is really really sick.. She's going in for surgery.. I'm still very unemployed .. And I feel so alone out here.. I moved out here to make my life a small amount better but it has progressive gotten worse... I just don't know why I have to continuously be tested and punished.. I need something to give ... I want happiness and the only things that made me happy currently reside in NY... Why does life gotta suck before it gets better
