0
Work cancelled my shift today...so I'm off to potluck. Thankfully Andy won't be there...I think after our last conversation, seeing each other would be really awkward. Oh, and there might be some sexy times. *Fingers crossed*
VIEW 4 of 4 COMMENTS
heatdude:
I love potlucks..Well you have yourself some fun young lady.wink wow im really late so let me say hope you had fun..
girly_alex:
Hope you had fun at he potluck.
0
So, guess who I finally met, in person? Yes, the mythical demon11942! This has been such a long time coming. We've been talking for over a year, and he finally shows up at my house this morning. We went out for breakfast, and went for a walk in the woods, and then we went to play mini golf. I gave him his Christmas gifts,...
Read More
VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
mazgaoten:
being happy is good.
heatdude:
Lucky..
0
So, last night after a very tough and intense discussion with Andy, he broke up with me. I wish I could say it was a mutual decision...and we both didn't want to do it, but after thinking about it a little, I'm not mad. I agree it was probably the best decision all around. I mean, the relationship was making me crazy for different reasons,...
Read More
VIEW 6 of 6 COMMENTS
girly_alex:
Sounds to me that you made some good decisions....evenif they were not happy ones. Hugs. I hope you feel better soon.
heatdude:
New week, fresh starts go get'em girl..
0
This past week has been one of my worst in a long time. I've had so much shit piled on me lately, I'm having trouble coping. Between work, relationship drama, feeling unsafe, being overwhelmed, and over all being extremely stressed, I don't feel like I can be strong anymore. People tell me I'm the strongest person they know. I've been through hell and back, and...
Read More
VIEW 4 of 4 COMMENTS
mydogfarted:
I'm so with you on the frustration of trying to re-learn to communicate. I'm much better than I was when khoos and I started dating, but I still suck at it. I always just want to shut down, or scream and say horrible, angry things. I know it is wrong, so I keep pushing forward.
heatdude:
sometimes we just need to let it all out, when im down i just get some beer listen to music and have a good beer cry..good luck always keep pushing forward..
0
I went to visit one of my partners this week, and I hung out with her and her master. When we planned this visit, I anticipated that I would feel comfortable, and have fun. I missed her, and I really wanted to be with her.

However, our fun soon turned into not so fun, non consensual behavior, and drama. I thought by talking it out,...
Read More
VIEW 6 of 6 COMMENTS
girly_alex:
(SIGH!.....) frown I am SOOOOO sorry you had such a terrible experience. I am sorry that you experienced the dark side and danger of that kind of situation. Please be patient with yourself and allow yourself to get over this....you will feel safe again. Find your most trusted friend (even if it is outside that community) or your mom if you have a the kind of relationship where she can comfort you. Once you feel safe again, then you can look at what you want to do in that special community.

I am grateful you were not physically hurt. That kind of stuff can be very scary.

I am sending you safe hugs and peaceful vibes. Good luck.
heatdude:
Play time=safe and respect time..hope you find both..
0
Just to let everyone know, I am no longer ill, and I do not have a blood clot...this was discovered after spending far too much time in the emergency room.

I had a lovely weekend, although the beginning of the weekend didn't turn out so well. Turns out I got my girlfriend, Rose, sick, so she, Ross and I stayed home from the party. She...
Read More
mydogfarted:
sounds like a good ending to me. smile
giggles:
glad to hear you are ok
0
Went to the doctor's today because I thought I had the flu. Turns out I'm having a horrible reaction to the antibiotic for my infection. My doctor just called me back and said I might have a blood clot in my lungs. I'm off to the hospital.
VIEW 4 of 4 COMMENTS
smaptie:
Why are you blogging if you might have a pulmonary embolism?! Go to the hospital.
Hope you get well.
giggles:
ack i hope you are ok
0
I'm off to potluck. Hope there is some cuddles and hot make outs in my future. biggrin
giggles:
smile
smaptie:
Ah the box cutter, it's from the Breaking Bad season premier. It is a great show.
0
Recently I haven't been feeling a lot of love on this site. And maybe it's just me, and maybe it's because I've found love elsewhere...but I don't feel the same sort of love feelings I used to have when I first joined this site. I mean yes, I've moved on to bigger and better things...well, maybe not better, but different for sure. And I've found...
Read More
VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
giggles:
hug
losty:
Life, online or offline, has its peaks and its valleys. Chill and do your thing as you see fit.
0
spazzing:
oh man, i know just how you feel. it was sooo goood
giggles:
smile