mirima

Ok, enough's enough. Something has to change.

I vent too much, I ask for too much, I am needy for too much affection and reassurance, and I'm too ungrateful and shirk attempts to reassure me. I give too much of myself, when it is not asked for, and martyr myself. I put others on pedestals, and expect the same kindness and love I give to them. It's too much burden for one person. I'm too co-dependent. This is why people can no longer be friends with me. This has to change.

I need to work on being more independent and more self-sufficient. I need to have more self-love, and be able to reassure myself. I need to give to myself, before I give so much of myself to others. I need to be as kind to myself as I am to other people. I need to not be so hard on myself, and be able to forgive myself. I need to stop venting, and start making improvements to my life. I need to focus more on the positives, and less on the negatives. I seem to forget that there are others in my life who love me unconditionally, when I've put those few people in my life on pedestals. That is too much burden and responsibility for one person.

I have four more weeks here. Can I make those improvements and necessary changes to my life, and make amends to those I've hurt, in that time?