mirima

Life becomes increasingly more complicated and perhaps even sorrowful. Andrew has another girl in his life. She's not in his life like I'm in his life. However, she is forcing him to choose between the two of us. Andrew told me he loved me last night. That he was in love with me. It was during our show. My head is reeling. My emotions are out of control. I think I love him too...I know I do. That should be his choice...but for some reason he's still having trouble deciding. Mostly because he's curious to know what it would be like to date her I suppose.

Andrew and I spent most of the night together last night. We made love for the first time. His first time ever, my first time with him. He said he would make me a V-Card, that I could keep forever. Hmm....life is kind of amazing right now.

And then it becomes more complicated. Jacob came to the show last night. Told me he missed me. Came to my house today. Gave me a necklace. The pendent is the hebrew symbol for Life. Told me he wanted to fight for me, fight for us. Told me he wanted to be with me, and to choose him, over Andrew. Andrew and I have, at very least, two more months together, before he is forced to make a choice. Jacob told me he's fallen for me.

What am I supposed to do with this information? How am I supposed to choose between two wonderful men who love me? There are people encouraging me to date Jacob. There are people encouraging me to date Andrew. I really want to be with Andrew, but he's torn. Jacob really wants to be with me, and I'm torn. Life is becoming increasingly more complicated and difficult. I'm not sure what to do anymore.