I'm tired of living a lie.
I'm tired of pretending to be someone I'm not. Someone recently told me I was living a lie, pretending to be someone else, to live a life that wasn't mine, as if I was trying to impress someone. Why should I change who I am to suit someone else?
I'm tired of being pushed around. I'm not the girl I used to be. I'm not a doormat anymore.
I'm tired of putting up with people's shit. What about my shit? No one is there for me the way I am for them. I'm tired of everything being so one sided these days. Since when does being a friend mean you do it at your own convenience. Does anyone ever stop to think they might be inconveniencing me by their actions? I think about it all the time. I'm constantly thinking about the well being of others, but never myself.
I need to start doing for me. And I'm finally starting now. If no one will be my friend, well, I'll be my own best friend. And be there for me when I need it.
I'd like to have one friend who understands, and who is there for me. I'd like to be loved unconditionally. I'd like to fall in love with someone quirky, understanding, intelligent, dependable...and I'm starting to think that maybe I can't find that in a man. Its mostly because I don't feel like I'm fully fullfilled. I need more.
I'm lacking a female companion in my life.
I'm tired of pretending to be someone I'm not. Someone recently told me I was living a lie, pretending to be someone else, to live a life that wasn't mine, as if I was trying to impress someone. Why should I change who I am to suit someone else?
I'm tired of being pushed around. I'm not the girl I used to be. I'm not a doormat anymore.
I'm tired of putting up with people's shit. What about my shit? No one is there for me the way I am for them. I'm tired of everything being so one sided these days. Since when does being a friend mean you do it at your own convenience. Does anyone ever stop to think they might be inconveniencing me by their actions? I think about it all the time. I'm constantly thinking about the well being of others, but never myself.
I need to start doing for me. And I'm finally starting now. If no one will be my friend, well, I'll be my own best friend. And be there for me when I need it.
I'd like to have one friend who understands, and who is there for me. I'd like to be loved unconditionally. I'd like to fall in love with someone quirky, understanding, intelligent, dependable...and I'm starting to think that maybe I can't find that in a man. Its mostly because I don't feel like I'm fully fullfilled. I need more.
I'm lacking a female companion in my life.
aprilcot:
Reading this sounds just like something I would say or write!! I've learned and grown too and pretty much I live for me now. I've also just basically given up on finding a man...lol! Hope you stay your path because you deserve it all for YOU! 
giggles:
hug