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Yay, Positive Blog!

First off, I'm finally back on my meds, and feeling much more optimistic than I have been lately. Its been easier to get out of bed, and do all the things I need to do. I've found it much easier to throw myself into a task. And so far, good things have been happening to me. My social life, it seems, is not hanging by the thread I thought it was...or maybe that was just my poor perception of things, because of my depression.

Second, I've decided I'm going to go back to college next year. I'm going to spend this year working and preparing for college. I'll live on campus and live off loans. Even if I'm paying them back for the rest of my life, at least I'll start having a life, and doing something I love. I'll be thankful in the end for getting off my ass and doing something. I'm going to spend the next few months applying for jobs and applying for school. I've told my family to keep pushing me, no matter how much I may protest and procrastinate. I want to do this. I'm determined.

So I basically woke up with this brand new optimistic attitude. I woke up feeling productive and inspired. I cleaned my room. Didn't sit in front of the tv and vedge. I'm up and about, and feeling very good all of a sudden. Its quite a drastic change from the way I've been feeling as of late. Although I always tend to live in extremes. Part of me being kind of a drama queen I think.

So yay, happy dance!!!!