mirima

I feel the need to do something musical or creative. I feel the need to learn something new. I feel the need to start a new project. I feel the need to get in touch with old friends. I feel the need to start a new chapter in my life. I feel the need to take a leap of faith. I feel the need to be daring and brave.
With all this time on my hands, I have no idea what to do with myself. I've been filling out applications, and taking care of my poor, suffering sister, who got her toncils out last week. There's only so much I can do while stuck in the house. So far, no luck on the job hunt. I've had a few fun times. Last night I went to karaoke, saw an old friend, sang some songs...horribly I might add...and am looking forward to Thursday night, when my ex girlfriend and I will get together to watch all of the second season of Dexter. Very excited about that.
However, with all my free time, and good friends in my life, despite all that, I feel like my life is lacking something. And its not the lack of job. Its something more internal. I've been off my meds for a couple of weeks now, and its really starting to get to me. I mean, its not just that I can't sleep, and I'm so close to a mental breakdown, but its the fact that I'm actually thinking creatively now. When I'm on my meds, I tend not to have much of an imagination. It takes a depressed person at the end of their rope to actually think creatively.
So, I'm asking for some inspiration. What should I do with my life? Should I pick up a new hobby? What subjects should I learn more about? Anything daring I should try? What are your thoughts?

Oh, and on a lighter note, I got my new cd. She and Him Volume 1. Listening to it now. Very excited!