mirima

I'm done trying. I have no confidence in human existence anymore. I was perfectly content having no emotion whatsoever, and replacing love with meaningless sex. Then this guy comes a long...and you should know, I told myself I'd never fall for another man, or ever be in another relationship...and this guy comes along, and opens my heart, breaks down my walls, and makes me feel again. All of a sudden I wanted all the things I never wanted, and I wanted them with him. Now, he's become every other guy I've ever encountered. Ignoring me, avoiding me, doesn't have the balls to tell me to my face how worthless I am, and how he could never be with a person like me. I just wish someone had the strength to tell me the truth. Stop beating around the bush, and just tell me how you feel.
I'm fucking done. After this pain and agony goes away, I'm going back to how I originally was. Emotionless, loveless, and replacing love with meaningless sex. No, it won't make me happy. No, I probably won't even be content. But, I was perfectly ok with it the last time.