I'm sick of being confused and hurt. So many people like me, and I feel for some, most not so much. I just wish my life wasn't so complicated. I wish I could just like one person, and be done with it. I know where my heart is leading me, but my head tells me it makes no sense, and to go for what does make sense. I know now what I must do, and it hurts me to even think about it. I need to let everyone go, and be me, by myself, so I can figure things out. I know who I want and what I want, but right now that doesn't seem to be an option, and I'm not even sure he likes me. Hasn't called in three days, hasn't made any move to contact me. I'm worried, I'm scared, and I hate these emotions. I don't want to be that girl who waits by the phone. I want to go back to not feeling anything, but once he came into my life he changed things. I can't let go now, and I won't. I'm in it till the end. I can't keep lying to myself, and breaking hearts.
I want him more than ever now. I just wish he wanted me back.
I want him more than ever now. I just wish he wanted me back.
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aj_da_freak:
I went through a lot of the same emotions last summer that you ar going through. It took me to hit bottomn before I could reealize what was important in life and what I could attain. While I have no sage advice for you all I can say is it helped for me to find the simple pleasures that life could offer and focus on them. It seemed once I did that and I stopped worrying about everything else I couldn't control, life once again fell into place. You have a beautiful smile, keep moving forward. 
