Owch I didn't need that! Hate it when you get hit by emotions you just don't want to acknowledge anymore but sometimes they're too strong to keep down.
Came out of accounting college this afternoon only to bump into my Nemesis on her way in. Basically she went with the head down straight on past attitude. again it momentarily hit me how strange it was to have that kind of situation with someone you've known for 2 and a half years. But apparently it hit me harder than that. Took out my train ticket to get through the barrier and my hand was shaking. Felt shaky inside too and it took me about 10 minutes to compose myself telling myself that the person wasn't worth this reaction. Not happy about it as it's difficult to move on from this person when you get reactions like that around them
As an addition, if you saw my recent blog about the gorgeous woman in class who chatted with me and then basically ignored me next time I saw her, I finally realised why! After speaking with me she might have decided I was an idiot and wanted nothing more to do with me! Can't believe I let ego cloud that suggestion over
Anyway, as Corey would say..."I won't let this build up inside of me..."
And Mr.Rollins courtsey of Tool:
If I let you, you would make me destroy myself.
in order to survive you, i must first survive myself.
I can sink no further, and I cannot forgive you
there's no choice but to confront you, to engage you, to erase you.
I've gone to great lengths to expand my threshold of pain
I will use my mistakes against you, there's no other choice
im shameless now, im nameless now, im nothing now, im no one now
but my soul must be iron 'cause my fear is naked
im naked and fearless
and my fear is naked
Came out of accounting college this afternoon only to bump into my Nemesis on her way in. Basically she went with the head down straight on past attitude. again it momentarily hit me how strange it was to have that kind of situation with someone you've known for 2 and a half years. But apparently it hit me harder than that. Took out my train ticket to get through the barrier and my hand was shaking. Felt shaky inside too and it took me about 10 minutes to compose myself telling myself that the person wasn't worth this reaction. Not happy about it as it's difficult to move on from this person when you get reactions like that around them
As an addition, if you saw my recent blog about the gorgeous woman in class who chatted with me and then basically ignored me next time I saw her, I finally realised why! After speaking with me she might have decided I was an idiot and wanted nothing more to do with me! Can't believe I let ego cloud that suggestion over
Anyway, as Corey would say..."I won't let this build up inside of me..."
And Mr.Rollins courtsey of Tool:
If I let you, you would make me destroy myself.
in order to survive you, i must first survive myself.
I can sink no further, and I cannot forgive you
there's no choice but to confront you, to engage you, to erase you.
I've gone to great lengths to expand my threshold of pain
I will use my mistakes against you, there's no other choice
im shameless now, im nameless now, im nothing now, im no one now
but my soul must be iron 'cause my fear is naked
im naked and fearless
and my fear is naked
comixbookgurl:
*hugs*