Sitting here listening to Tool while making my way through a bottle of Whiskey (The Irish stuff, hence the "e"). New mediation session set up for Wednesday morning with a possibilty of a joint meeting on Thursday afternoon if Wednesday goes well. Doubt it will and the idea of a joint meeting fills me with dread, actually the idea of going back into work on Monday fills me with dread...hence me listening to Tool and working my way through a bottle of Whiskey.
What do you say to someone you hate when you're stuck in a room with them and two other people recording what you say and do?
Don't get me wrong, my Nemesis is a complete bitch but I have to shoulder alot of blame myself for the current situation. I could have been alot more open to things and not felt so many emotions (how dare I!). But when you're stuck in a room with 2 people watching you come to terms with these issues what the hell do you say? My main problem is my immediate reaction will be to go on the defence. Mainly because I don't feel this is justified. Lets outline the major issues:
Her: Finds it difficult to work with someone who doesn't like her. Doesn't like the way I send e-mails and is pissed off that I don't make her a cup of tea (I'm very serious here, i don't make anyone a tea at work as I don't drink it)
Me: Threw myself into a friendship while training her, pushed her to take on a qualification as well as pushing the company to get a rise for her and also covered non stop for her and in the end got thrown to one side when she found a better friend. So I folded, collapsed into myself, don't talk anymore, hate people, drink way too much, can't sleep as I hate waking up the next morning to go to work.
I was possibly there anyway and this just broke the camels back but to sit in a room with my feelings and have to discuss how she is annoyed that I sign off my e-mails Kevin instead of Kev is taking the piss!
Christ it's killing me
Better news though. I've been in constant contact with my little sister and she sounds better with each day. She has her moments but the family has surrounded her and she's making her way through it. I plan to go home soon to spend time with her, spent alot of time on the phone with her tonight joking around. She's just amazing.
What do you say to someone you hate when you're stuck in a room with them and two other people recording what you say and do?
Don't get me wrong, my Nemesis is a complete bitch but I have to shoulder alot of blame myself for the current situation. I could have been alot more open to things and not felt so many emotions (how dare I!). But when you're stuck in a room with 2 people watching you come to terms with these issues what the hell do you say? My main problem is my immediate reaction will be to go on the defence. Mainly because I don't feel this is justified. Lets outline the major issues:
Her: Finds it difficult to work with someone who doesn't like her. Doesn't like the way I send e-mails and is pissed off that I don't make her a cup of tea (I'm very serious here, i don't make anyone a tea at work as I don't drink it)
Me: Threw myself into a friendship while training her, pushed her to take on a qualification as well as pushing the company to get a rise for her and also covered non stop for her and in the end got thrown to one side when she found a better friend. So I folded, collapsed into myself, don't talk anymore, hate people, drink way too much, can't sleep as I hate waking up the next morning to go to work.
I was possibly there anyway and this just broke the camels back but to sit in a room with my feelings and have to discuss how she is annoyed that I sign off my e-mails Kevin instead of Kev is taking the piss!
Christ it's killing me
Better news though. I've been in constant contact with my little sister and she sounds better with each day. She has her moments but the family has surrounded her and she's making her way through it. I plan to go home soon to spend time with her, spent alot of time on the phone with her tonight joking around. She's just amazing.
I don't have any advice for being around people you hate. I'm not very good at being disliked.