mira77

Sitting here getting through a bottle of Whisky after the crap of work today and lets face it, this week...or month! Kind of tired in the World we live in right now considering that I'm now on anti-depressants and off to counselling because of work. Hardly feels like the kind of thing you aspire to when you grow up. Still, I go in, day after day (no time off because of my delicate state), and die just that little bit with each passing hour. The worst thing is that it follows you home and you find yourself sitting on the couch staring at the wall thinking what the hell is going on. Before you know it you're back in the next day.

I made 2 bad choices. I had 2 job offers on the same day, I took the safe one. A year later I interviewed for someone to replace me as I moved up. I had 2 choices, I pushed for the best one. Both have haunted me for the last 2 years pushing me into misery I never knew existed. You try to indulge in the good things in life, well the good things you can get for free! but 8 hours, 5 days a week, eats away at you and it's hard to fill that hole....but fill it you must and on that point of optimism tomorrow morning I'm going to wake up! That's a start I guess....