minispdrcr

Why....why... Why is it that the girl I love with all my heart needs time away from me. I cant stop thinking about her, I lay here alone in bed, cold...wondering if she is thinking of me. I dont think this will end well, I dont think that we will be together after 7 years. Sure we had our troubles, but what relationship doesnt??? I am willing to work on things. I want her to know that I love her so much and she means everything to me and hope that I mean everything to her. We were supposed to get married in October, were looking to get a house...and wham, she wants a break to think if she wants to be ith me or not...

I wont even go into what happend on april 10th...

I just hope that it all ens well and that we will be together again. She mentioned in her blog that she cant comment on life...I wonder if its cause of me...how did I fuck up so bad to loose 7 years or love...


I love her...I love her so much...I am willing to change for her....do anyhing for her....

I want her back, I want her to realize she is my everything...

I hope after the break that we will be together forever.

Why do I always fuck things up...I dont even know what I did...DAMMIT, please....