For the last 6 months or so I've been slowly flirting with a customer that comes into where I work. It's been going at this pace mainly because she comes in once a week and I'm not always there on the days that she visits. On average I see her once every few weeks.
Over the last two weeks we crossed the chatting threshold into the "Hey, you should add me on Facebook" and arrived at the "Give me a call during the week." moment. It feels like something's brewing. And I do hope that's the case. She's very pretty in a unique way. The kind I really like. Not a perfect typical beauty. She has strange and wonderful eyes, awkwardly large lips that I'm dying to kiss, a super long and incredibly soft hair.
Other regular clients know her, probably better than I do, being as they see her nearly ever week she comes in. She's loud and very talkative, though I have to say I really like her raspy Demi Moore voice, especially listening to her speak in Spanish. She's funny and honest. And very warm. Last week, for example, she asked a complete stranger to take some photos of us together. When she handed him her phone she wrapped her arms around me and snuggled her face next to mine. His response was, "Mira que tanto amor." - Look at how much love.
There's always a but, right? Here it comes. There's no doubt in my mind this girl is partly crazy. I don't mean in the literal sense of crazy, but in the super hard to handle crazy. I think a better way to put it is we have different energy levels. She's a party girl and I'm more of the sit in the corner at the party and chat with one person for 4 hours.
One of my friends who has met her warned me that I should not get attached. "Sure, you'll end up sleeping with her" he said "but don't fall in love with her."
And so for now I'm already putting up a guard. I hate that feeling. I'd rather end up heartbroken than hold back my true emotions.
Over the past week we've been sending some messages back and forth and she's as warm and friendly in the messages as she is in person. It doesn't feel fake. It feels like someone who wants to be loved very deeply, but maybe never has been. Someone who lots of people view as someone to hook up with, but not to date. I do believe it's inevitable at this point we will have some sort of physical relationship. We're going through all the motions to get there. But what comes after that? I'd truly love to have this girl as a friend. I truthfully don't know if I am even ready for a committed long term relationship.
I think it would be a shame to hold back and ultimately find out that she's a good person deep down and wants to have a serious boyfriend. For now I think I need to see her in a place outside of my work to get a better feel for who she is.
