mingusdew

well now. another saturday night spent sitting around on the internet by myself. i guess the lack of folks on this site indicate that the much more common thing to do is drag oneself around the bars or some such thing... well, i fly in the face of every trend. hahahhhahhhahahahhahhaha!!!!
i'm sitting around and listening to the cooler kids. i enjoy disco more than any straight man ever should. esp. any straight man who doesn't dance. and double especially any straight man who needs to maintain a rep as a music elitist... maybe i was a 13 year old girl in a previous incarnation, or a cocaine-dealing club owner in a previous incarceration. god this cd just rucking focks and that's all there is to it!!!!!!!!

aaaaanyway...
i'm debating whether to move to montana next summer, cause i really want to live there out in the mountains and all, or moving to seattle or the twin cities cause the universities have much better programs for asian studies and polisci types of stuff. i think being so career oriented is a kind of cowardice though... not doing what you want, living the life you want, because you are so worried about the future.... yeah, fuck the future. there is no future, just the continual present.

i did read "globalization and its discontents" for a while today... i'm almost on the verge of furtively edging into productivity. I wish I had enough money to buy the new issue of "foreign affairs"... all in good time, all in good time. just got to get through one more week with no money and then i's gettin PAID. then my student loans come in and i'm going to be lighting my cigars with hundred dollar bills while being fellated by hookers. maybe i'll have a guy killed, just for the hell of it. because with that sweet sweet student loan cash, all things are possible. i need a bling-bling emoticon for how i'm feeling right now. with the kind of gubment money i'll be raking in, i see myself freaking some hot-ass bitches in the not-too-distant future. so step off, mufukas. don't make me gat ya.