i have been hesitant to update my journal because i liked my last entry so much. go back and look at that one, it's more interesting. anyway.
I had a conversation with Jia regarding the state of the world, and the dodgy path that humanity seems to be going down as of late. And I don't mean since bush became president, it's bigger than that. i think that there is something fundamentally going wrong in people's collective mind... maybe i'm projecting though.
anyway, i cut and pasted the most pertinent part...
I was reading about a Japanese sect called Oomoto, and this kind of seemed particularly resonant given the way the world is going....
"Those who are just and compassionate are regarded as foolish. Such is the darkness of the present world... People bow before the rich, and totally ignore the poor. If this world is left in the present state, the people will without exception become demons and will begin to devour one another."
The really scary thing for me is, either you force yourself to look away and detach yourself from all the suffering that is going on in the world, or you have to totally commit yourself to the exclusion of everything else... I can't accept that this isn't human nature, that I can make a difference, and then look at my Gamecube and not beat myself up over the fact that I spent 150 bucks on this rather than feeding and educating a kid in Sri Lanka or something... it's quite a paradox. Either I have to be totally selfish or totally selfless. Of course I choose selfishness for now... maybe when I have the energy and courage to act in accordance with my principles i'll be able to try and make a difference... I'm just worried that I'll end up 70 years old and realize, after a lifetime of beating my head against the wall of human nature, that I made no difference at all and I could have been having a great time getting loaded and scratching my ass.
end cut and paste. anyway, upon further reflection, i think i would feel a lot worse i realized that, after 70 years of getting loaded and scratching my ass, i could have been helping people and making a difference. i just have seen so many people who spend their lives working for the good of others and end up disillusioned and miserable, and these are far less pessimistic and misanthropic folks than I, and far more energetic... where does that energy come from?
I want to find a sound that will split the world in half.
I think that the Boredoms "Super Are" is my spiritual guide through life. I think the reason I find so little of interest in the world is that I constantly immerse myself in this music, music that is like a thousand orgasms and the universe kissing you on the tip of your nose. How can anything else compare to this?
sun
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shine on
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shine on
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I had a conversation with Jia regarding the state of the world, and the dodgy path that humanity seems to be going down as of late. And I don't mean since bush became president, it's bigger than that. i think that there is something fundamentally going wrong in people's collective mind... maybe i'm projecting though.
anyway, i cut and pasted the most pertinent part...
I was reading about a Japanese sect called Oomoto, and this kind of seemed particularly resonant given the way the world is going....
"Those who are just and compassionate are regarded as foolish. Such is the darkness of the present world... People bow before the rich, and totally ignore the poor. If this world is left in the present state, the people will without exception become demons and will begin to devour one another."
The really scary thing for me is, either you force yourself to look away and detach yourself from all the suffering that is going on in the world, or you have to totally commit yourself to the exclusion of everything else... I can't accept that this isn't human nature, that I can make a difference, and then look at my Gamecube and not beat myself up over the fact that I spent 150 bucks on this rather than feeding and educating a kid in Sri Lanka or something... it's quite a paradox. Either I have to be totally selfish or totally selfless. Of course I choose selfishness for now... maybe when I have the energy and courage to act in accordance with my principles i'll be able to try and make a difference... I'm just worried that I'll end up 70 years old and realize, after a lifetime of beating my head against the wall of human nature, that I made no difference at all and I could have been having a great time getting loaded and scratching my ass.
end cut and paste. anyway, upon further reflection, i think i would feel a lot worse i realized that, after 70 years of getting loaded and scratching my ass, i could have been helping people and making a difference. i just have seen so many people who spend their lives working for the good of others and end up disillusioned and miserable, and these are far less pessimistic and misanthropic folks than I, and far more energetic... where does that energy come from?
I want to find a sound that will split the world in half.
I think that the Boredoms "Super Are" is my spiritual guide through life. I think the reason I find so little of interest in the world is that I constantly immerse myself in this music, music that is like a thousand orgasms and the universe kissing you on the tip of your nose. How can anything else compare to this?
sun
sun
shine on
sun
sun
sun
shine on
sun
sun
sun
shine on
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freckle:
i always leave good journal entries up to try and force people into reading them... doesn't usually work though...
sabine:
that really gets to me too. i think of myself as compassionate but what good do i do the world? i'm too caught up in my own little universe, like most other people.