Wednesday Jul 21, 2004

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stitches....wont.....stop....itching...
mosquito bit me next to bandage...
Yaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrghhhh!

*so glad i never had chicken pox... mad

Oh yeah, and im thinking of changing my name on here... any suggestions?
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johnnyt:
OFFICIAL Fight Club insult post:

No Talking on The Porch! You do not post to your OWN JOURNAL. And you certainly don't post to mine - it's inside the house. Get me? Well, you probably don't, so ...

Get The Fuck Off My Porch! wink
seether:
If you've never had chicken pox, you better get the vaccine, I got the pox at like 26 and it nearly killed me.

So as my temp passed 104 degrees, my girlfriend and I decided to have sex in case I was dying... In retrospect, perhaps a visit to the emergency room would have been a better idea...

Nahhhhhhh!

-Sssssssssssssssssss

Tuesday Jul 20, 2004

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Things i have learned in the past 7 days:

*i can only handle lots of stress for about a year and a half before my mind turns to soup.

* i can LEARN to handle more stress and not ALLOW my mind to turn to soup.

* my heart is huge and there is room for everyone, but i dont have to hurt because of...
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roxymonoxcide:
I am going to be getting together with the parents again for our first meeting of the year. I do have a parent that is interested in being my co leader but I can always use more help. I also think the girls have more fun when it's other people than their parents around.

I'll email you some info when I figure out the parents meeting. That will be sometime in mid august.
mercie:
loves. xoxo kiss

Sunday Jul 18, 2004

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What can i say?
I let it all build up, and rejected all the help offered to me so i could deal with things in my own way.
A 72 hour hold aka 5150 and 5 stitches later, i am at my moms again and looking forward to months of therapy and C.A. (cutters anon.) meetings.

I had to cancel my housewarming party, and left...
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einzel:
Seeing the fat layer for the first time was what turned me off to self-mutilation...I realized how far I was taking it. The scars don't go away, so you will have them to remind yourself of your new beginning and your conviction to stay safe and healthy kiss
yuriel:
glad to see you have people you can depend on
bah *hugs you tight*
i want to see a safe happy catty again :x
youve no need for apologies youre obviously hurting very bad inside and i only hope you get the love care and support you need dear
EL SUICIDO LOCO
mad love

Thursday Jul 15, 2004

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Sometimes lyrics just say it all when its too painful to type...

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

Cause Im broken when Im lonesome
And I dont feel right when youre...
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peteyrock:
just have patience, doll. i know you've waited a long time.
yuriel:
*HUGS YOU REAAAAAALLLLLLY TIGHT*
EL SUICIDO LOCO
mad love
mmmmm amy lee hahaha.

Tuesday Jul 13, 2004

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So i had a bit of an epiphany today while laying below the misty canopy of my bed. I was listening to my IPod and flashed back to 4 years ago (Porcelin by Moby set it off) and suddenly realized that Drew is coming back, literally to a different world than when he left for Europe 3 years ago. Life was like this...

Trouncing out...
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peteyrock:
don't you worry. things will go great. i guarantee that he will love the changes.
mercie:
yeah i was feeling really weird when i wrote that, that mixture of hatred and love that i mentioned in there.... talk to you more about it laters.... xoxo

Monday Jul 12, 2004

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Im so tired of all of this. Keeping up with everyones lives so i can be part of a world that just seems to overload my memory and drives me to ctrl/alt/del when i can handle anymore.
I have all these different clans that i know will never come together, and they are all so different i feel like im living a fragmented life that...
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homewrecker:

"Drugs are bad, mmm'kay?"
mercie:
empty is my life.

i love YOU though. xoxo

Monday Jul 12, 2004

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rae:
love
apnea:
yo yo yo
i got yo email
me and *______* are shooting during the day

wink

Sunday Jul 11, 2004

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GUESS WHO IS IN A BRADLEY FIGHTING VEHICLE ON HIS WAY DOWN TO KUWAIT?
KhaymanIPX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Within 24 hours he will be out of harms way and able to take all his gear off (thank god, because his uniform and 47lbs of hear is hard on you when its 120 degrees out)
Keep him in your thoughts so he makes it safely! Please try and...
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apnea:
really???
really??
jenya:
i hardly think not wanting to see someone possibly flush their life away is being up on a pedestal. and she chooses to make her goings on public. i am just reacting to that.

i have had many friends and family waste their lives with drugs and alcohol and untreated mental illnesses.

i surely don't need to deal with it on here.

Friday Jul 09, 2004

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yesterday was fabulicious, but im entirely too tired to write at this point. I will update later when i regain my slowing dwindling conciousness.

PS. I love Rae and Mercie
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kungfuvoodoo:
Hey, I would walk your plank any day. wink
rae:
aww i heart you too!!!!
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