I am trying with all my strength that i can muster to get thru this. I havent stopped crying in 3 days. Im to the point where i cant even talk about it anymore.
I will not make it into the 27 club at this rate. Im fucking terrified of what will happen to me next.. there is this part of my brain i serioulsy can not control.
I am a middle class, 25 year old woman who cannot hold a job because all i do it hurt. For fucks sake, i go to apply for medi-cal, and they informed me that i was so screwed right now that i qualified for GR money and Food stams...So now i have those things...except for the medi-cal.
My existance is slipping into silt compared to sand.
How did i deserve this life?
i cant handle it.
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CLEAR! Call it. Approximate time of deah:______________
I will not make it into the 27 club at this rate. Im fucking terrified of what will happen to me next.. there is this part of my brain i serioulsy can not control.
I am a middle class, 25 year old woman who cannot hold a job because all i do it hurt. For fucks sake, i go to apply for medi-cal, and they informed me that i was so screwed right now that i qualified for GR money and Food stams...So now i have those things...except for the medi-cal.
My existance is slipping into silt compared to sand.
How did i deserve this life?
i cant handle it.
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CLEAR! Call it. Approximate time of deah:______________
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Just kidding.
I really hope it does get better though. I have dealt with depression my whole life, I finally got off the pills and decided to work on it by myself. The only thing I could think to say that would help is to remember this: Life is so very much a roller coaster, the fall won't last forever and it is SO worth it to work through it to get to those dizzying heights (and to quote Homer S. creamy middles). good luck.
let's go get a beer.