mineux

La la la la...i just woke up on the couch to my cell ringing, it was the lovely Xia, and now i am waiting for her so we can go hang out. hooray! That girl rocks, BFF!!! Last night i was panicky and lonely and logged into SG chat, which lead to the post your phone number thread. No creepy calls, but i did end up talking to the beautiful, sexy, funny, really nice and sweet Benni for over an hour at least! Its amazing how you can hardly cross posts with someone, then end up on the phone talking like girlfriends! It certainly cheered my night up!
Then the night went icky bad. I ended up IMing with my SO, and then felt suicidal for an hour. I planned it all out too. Its still a plan, i just need that last push and im out of here, fuck this shit. I AM NOT A BEAUTIFUL FLOWER. I Am NOT a SURVIVOR.
I AM NOT ANYTHING USEFUL.

have a nice day