im back.
still hurting.
but now i have a fucking plan.
i will not cry over HIM anymore.
and i dont think i feel like dyin today because i for once actually have a plan im going to stick to.
Watch out Harbor College music deptartment for me this spring!!! Oh, and FUCK MUtHA FUCKIN EL CAMINO COLLEGE.
I want to go to a school,...
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still hurting.
but now i have a fucking plan.
i will not cry over HIM anymore.
and i dont think i feel like dyin today because i for once actually have a plan im going to stick to.
Watch out Harbor College music deptartment for me this spring!!! Oh, and FUCK MUtHA FUCKIN EL CAMINO COLLEGE.
I want to go to a school,...
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goodbye everyone.
i may not return.
im sorry.
i may not return.
im sorry.
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hellomrworld:
we will miss you ... be good
metalmarna:
man, i wish you were stronger than this. it sucks to see you so easily torn by people who don't give two shits about you.
move on.
seriously, if you just mind your own and do what you gotta do for YOURSELF, those who really care for you will be coming out of the wood work begging for your friendship!
it ain't easy - but it beats bein' sleazy.
never give up.
move on.
seriously, if you just mind your own and do what you gotta do for YOURSELF, those who really care for you will be coming out of the wood work begging for your friendship!
it ain't easy - but it beats bein' sleazy.
never give up.
Holy fucking archive!!!
All these great girls, gone in one day???
Sita, Gillian, Voltaire, Apnea, Katie, Annabelle, Rapture, Molly, and Claudia, all in one day.
All these great girls, gone in one day???
Sita, Gillian, Voltaire, Apnea, Katie, Annabelle, Rapture, Molly, and Claudia, all in one day.
corroded_heart:
wow! I didn't know that. WTF is going on?
radiofrank:
'Tis a strange day, to say the least...
I am trying with all my strength that i can muster to get thru this. I havent stopped crying in 3 days. Im to the point where i cant even talk about it anymore.
I will not make it into the 27 club at this rate. Im fucking terrified of what will happen to me next.. there is this part of my brain i serioulsy...
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I will not make it into the 27 club at this rate. Im fucking terrified of what will happen to me next.. there is this part of my brain i serioulsy...
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jujubee:
ah. well. alcohol it is then.
Just kidding.
I really hope it does get better though. I have dealt with depression my whole life, I finally got off the pills and decided to work on it by myself. The only thing I could think to say that would help is to remember this: Life is so very much a roller coaster, the fall won't last forever and it is SO worth it to work through it to get to those dizzying heights (and to quote Homer S. creamy middles). good luck.
Just kidding.
I really hope it does get better though. I have dealt with depression my whole life, I finally got off the pills and decided to work on it by myself. The only thing I could think to say that would help is to remember this: Life is so very much a roller coaster, the fall won't last forever and it is SO worth it to work through it to get to those dizzying heights (and to quote Homer S. creamy middles). good luck.
eternal_sigh:
let's go get a beer.
let's go get a beer.
Cattra's Fall Clearance:
In the last 30 hours, i have burned 3 bridges into the fiery depths of nowhere. And soon i will know if another bridge in my life the size of the Golden Gate will burn into dust that may never have a phoenix rise from it.
One person ive known for 8 years... at times my friend, my confidant, my advisor, my...
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In the last 30 hours, i have burned 3 bridges into the fiery depths of nowhere. And soon i will know if another bridge in my life the size of the Golden Gate will burn into dust that may never have a phoenix rise from it.
One person ive known for 8 years... at times my friend, my confidant, my advisor, my...
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vrulovwrath:
OK first of all what are you talking about in my jurnal (the ninja groop aplying) theres a ninja groop already if you want to try and join (you already know that ofcourse). I'm in it (I gues you already know that too). You aplyed and you still wait for aproval? Well you should wait a litle more (I waited too) you don't have to worry.
And second as for your entrie I know how you feel, some times long friendships end like this. I have my own expiriences.
And second as for your entrie I know how you feel, some times long friendships end like this. I have my own expiriences.
munke:
<cough cough> No snuggly beds or 650+ thread count sheets on a pirate ship either. 
And just so you know... I love the salt water in my eyes... and some day, god willing, i'll fall into that soft comforting deep embrace of the ocean, when the time be right for me to move on to the next stage of existence...
Oh yes, I also like the Harry Potter series... does that take away from my "worthyness" of being in the Pirate Group???
I also burn bridges quite a lot... and my profile changes quite often, depending on it i'm on a high, or low... or somewhere inbetween...
Hell, anyone that hates ninjas is a friend of mine...
And just so you know... I love the salt water in my eyes... and some day, god willing, i'll fall into that soft comforting deep embrace of the ocean, when the time be right for me to move on to the next stage of existence...
Oh yes, I also like the Harry Potter series... does that take away from my "worthyness" of being in the Pirate Group???
I also burn bridges quite a lot... and my profile changes quite often, depending on it i'm on a high, or low... or somewhere inbetween...
Hell, anyone that hates ninjas is a friend of mine...
i took alot of xanax to prevent the crying screams that were impending. I snapped a thick rubber band on my wristsand arms till the areas turned blue. i can barely type.
Maybe i wont wake in the morning. it wpi;d
be an improvment
i
Maybe i wont wake in the morning. it wpi;d
be an improvment
i
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eternal_sigh:
dont go just yet.
do you have friends or family you can spill your guts to?
hope you find some sort of peace... and i'm not talking eternal peace. at least not yet.
do you have friends or family you can spill your guts to?
hope you find some sort of peace... and i'm not talking eternal peace. at least not yet.
radiofrank:
*hugs*
*hugs*
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lankakitten:
You sound happier, are you happier?
funkabella:
she totally rawks, and i love your picture like whoa <3 you=the secks fo sho 
<3angie
<3angie
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rock_starry:
awww she made me one too! kittie is so sweet! mine is in my journal for yesterday
wendy:
hot profile pic, lady.
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american_xile:
I did promise you that didnt I? Now im gonna sound like a jerk because I just found out my account went from 150 dollars to negative 30 in a day. I know, I know, I suck. I didnt spend my money like that though yesterday. so I dont know how that happened. is it possible for me to get you the hoodie when i come back for colombus day? of course I'll need an adress to send it to wont I? and several reminders while Im away in the field. Please forgive me?
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I did promise you that didnt I? Now im gonna sound like a jerk because I just found out my account went from 150 dollars to negative 30 in a day. I know, I know, I suck. I didnt spend my money like that though yesterday. so I dont know how that happened. is it possible for me to get you the hoodie when i come back for colombus day? of course I'll need an adress to send it to wont I? and several reminders while Im away in the field. Please forgive me?
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eternal_sigh:
wait
what happened?
what happened?
Not dwelling on my problems today.
Katrina has diverted my attention and reminded me that i am just a speck of sand on this massive rock.
I wrote a letter to Anne Rice just now, since her phone message line is down. I offered my support and thoughts. I also suggested the publication of some sort of book of short stories from her, and others...
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Katrina has diverted my attention and reminded me that i am just a speck of sand on this massive rock.
I wrote a letter to Anne Rice just now, since her phone message line is down. I offered my support and thoughts. I also suggested the publication of some sort of book of short stories from her, and others...
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streetmuse:
sweetheart, thanks for the comment on my set! means a lot comin from such a hottie!
cant wait to see more of you!
cant wait to see more of you!
radiofrank:
I'm with you on all of that, my dear, and I'll be damned if I can't do something to help.
How can I ask love to hold the mystery
When just look at me
It's all push and pull collateral
I don't want to be the one who gets the next surprise
I'll plan it out this time
Though I used to think that things were meant to be
So farewell to the old me
Farewell to the old me
My life is working better...
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When just look at me
It's all push and pull collateral
I don't want to be the one who gets the next surprise
I'll plan it out this time
Though I used to think that things were meant to be
So farewell to the old me
Farewell to the old me
My life is working better...
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american_xile:
Youre suggesting The wall arent you? Ive avoided that album for a long time now. I hate to think about it because it digs into me. There was a time when I listened to it so much. I still have comfortbaly numb on the computer. Im more of a "wish you were here" kind of guy these days. while still melancholy, Theres hope in it. For me theres no hope in "the wall". Id like to think ive broken down the walls that seperated me from feeling. I feel, and it causes the better part of my anguish. I think its because I have nowhere to channel my feelings. they just sit here in my head and heart going stagnant. I so need.....something.
eternal_sigh:
i so need... a large double cheese pizza and a 12 pack of newcastle.
this will ring true happiness.
until you puke.
...i didnt go to the party at the rokbar because i figured a fat person with no social skills is needed in a room full of hipsters.
so i went to the dvd signing on sunset.
shera personalized a dvd i bought for my friends robert and ann-rene and shera wrote "Ann-Rene - lick my dirty ass. xoxo Shera (heart)".
awesome. we're gonna go watch it tonight and get drunk.
this will ring true happiness.
until you puke.
...i didnt go to the party at the rokbar because i figured a fat person with no social skills is needed in a room full of hipsters.
so i went to the dvd signing on sunset.
shera personalized a dvd i bought for my friends robert and ann-rene and shera wrote "Ann-Rene - lick my dirty ass. xoxo Shera (heart)".
awesome. we're gonna go watch it tonight and get drunk.
How can I ask love to hold the mystery
When just look at me
It's all push and pull collateral
I don't want to be the one who gets the next surprise
I'll plan it out this time
Though I used to think that things were meant to be
So farewell to the old me
Farewell to the old me
My life is working better...
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When just look at me
It's all push and pull collateral
I don't want to be the one who gets the next surprise
I'll plan it out this time
Though I used to think that things were meant to be
So farewell to the old me
Farewell to the old me
My life is working better...
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The thing with my categories is this... it doesn't matter if the first category would bring you drama, it's all just about how you want to be seen. If it doesn't break your heart to not have countless anonymous eyes upon you at all times, it's just not you. However, we are both that catergory three since we care so much what our loved ones think about us.
IM me lady. I heart you. xoxo