Things i have learned in the past 7 days:
*i can only handle lots of stress for about a year and a half before my mind turns to soup.
* i can LEARN to handle more stress and not ALLOW my mind to turn to soup.
* my heart is huge and there is room for everyone, but i dont have to hurt because of...
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*i can only handle lots of stress for about a year and a half before my mind turns to soup.
* i can LEARN to handle more stress and not ALLOW my mind to turn to soup.
* my heart is huge and there is room for everyone, but i dont have to hurt because of...
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What can i say?
I let it all build up, and rejected all the help offered to me so i could deal with things in my own way.
A 72 hour hold aka 5150 and 5 stitches later, i am at my moms again and looking forward to months of therapy and C.A. (cutters anon.) meetings.
I had to cancel my housewarming party, and left...
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I let it all build up, and rejected all the help offered to me so i could deal with things in my own way.
A 72 hour hold aka 5150 and 5 stitches later, i am at my moms again and looking forward to months of therapy and C.A. (cutters anon.) meetings.
I had to cancel my housewarming party, and left...
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einzel:
Seeing the fat layer for the first time was what turned me off to self-mutilation...I realized how far I was taking it. The scars don't go away, so you will have them to remind yourself of your new beginning and your conviction to stay safe and healthy 
yuriel:
glad to see you have people you can depend on
bah *hugs you tight*
i want to see a safe happy catty again :x
youve no need for apologies youre obviously hurting very bad inside and i only hope you get the love care and support you need dear
bah *hugs you tight*
i want to see a safe happy catty again :x
youve no need for apologies youre obviously hurting very bad inside and i only hope you get the love care and support you need dear
Sometimes lyrics just say it all when its too painful to type...
I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
Cause Im broken when Im lonesome
And I dont feel right when youre...
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I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
Cause Im broken when Im lonesome
And I dont feel right when youre...
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peteyrock:
just have patience, doll. i know you've waited a long time.
yuriel:
*HUGS YOU REAAAAAALLLLLLY TIGHT*
mmmmm amy lee hahaha.
mmmmm amy lee hahaha.
So i had a bit of an epiphany today while laying below the misty canopy of my bed. I was listening to my IPod and flashed back to 4 years ago (Porcelin by Moby set it off) and suddenly realized that Drew is coming back, literally to a different world than when he left for Europe 3 years ago. Life was like this...
Trouncing out...
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Trouncing out...
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peteyrock:
don't you worry. things will go great. i guarantee that he will love the changes.
mercie:
yeah i was feeling really weird when i wrote that, that mixture of hatred and love that i mentioned in there.... talk to you more about it laters.... xoxo
yeah
whatever
whatever
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homewrecker:
GentlemanCaller beat me to the punchline.
rae:
awww assholes... trying to do stuff with you at that club
Im so tired of all of this. Keeping up with everyones lives so i can be part of a world that just seems to overload my memory and drives me to ctrl/alt/del when i can handle anymore.
I have all these different clans that i know will never come together, and they are all so different i feel like im living a fragmented life that...
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I have all these different clans that i know will never come together, and they are all so different i feel like im living a fragmented life that...
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homewrecker:
"Drugs are bad, mmm'kay?"
"Drugs are bad, mmm'kay?"
mercie:
empty is my life.
i love YOU though. xoxo
i love YOU though. xoxo
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apnea:
yo yo yo
i got yo email
me and *______* are shooting during the day
i got yo email
me and *______* are shooting during the day
GUESS WHO IS IN A BRADLEY FIGHTING VEHICLE ON HIS WAY DOWN TO KUWAIT?
KhaymanIPX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Within 24 hours he will be out of harms way and able to take all his gear off (thank god, because his uniform and 47lbs of hear is hard on you when its 120 degrees out)
Keep him in your thoughts so he makes it safely! Please try and...
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KhaymanIPX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Within 24 hours he will be out of harms way and able to take all his gear off (thank god, because his uniform and 47lbs of hear is hard on you when its 120 degrees out)
Keep him in your thoughts so he makes it safely! Please try and...
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apnea:
really???
really??
really??
jenya:
i hardly think not wanting to see someone possibly flush their life away is being up on a pedestal. and she chooses to make her goings on public. i am just reacting to that.
i have had many friends and family waste their lives with drugs and alcohol and untreated mental illnesses.
i surely don't need to deal with it on here.
i have had many friends and family waste their lives with drugs and alcohol and untreated mental illnesses.
i surely don't need to deal with it on here.
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kungfuvoodoo:
Hey, I would walk your plank any day.
rae:
aww i heart you too!!!!
i still have no bed.
i missed Bad Religion and the Sounds for NO FUCKING REASON.
Bed will be here thurs or friday.
grrrrrr.
i wanna be sedated!
edited to say: DID i mention that i was supposed to be INTERVIEWING Bad Religion and the SOUNDS????
Double boo hoo
i missed Bad Religion and the Sounds for NO FUCKING REASON.
Bed will be here thurs or friday.
grrrrrr.
i wanna be sedated!
edited to say: DID i mention that i was supposed to be INTERVIEWING Bad Religion and the SOUNDS????
Double boo hoo
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machiavel:
Oh no 
glassheart:
mrrreow. 
How hard is it to deliver a fucking bed on the scheduled date???
Im so pissed, now instead of going and distributing the mag at Warped Tour i have to sit around and wait for my bed to be delivered!!!
GRRRRRRRRRR!
Im so pissed, now instead of going and distributing the mag at Warped Tour i have to sit around and wait for my bed to be delivered!!!
GRRRRRRRRRR!
rae:
tell them i said to eat my ass for not delivering your bed. no nad religion then... aghhhh.
oh well..
thanks for the saturday thing
oh well..
thanks for the saturday thing
zgrat:
aw that sucks. i missed warped this year too 
So I finally got around to making a logo for my 'Modern Pirates' group. I really like it. Its simple, and a bit self serving
It is from the pirate photo shoot that i did down at the old Marine Land site in PV. Once i finish the photo shop editing i will have the entire set up =) But for now, enjoy this summer...
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It is from the pirate photo shoot that i did down at the old Marine Land site in PV. Once i finish the photo shop editing i will have the entire set up =) But for now, enjoy this summer...
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talula10:
nice.
st_jimmy:
glad to hear your someone special is coming home
take care
take care
I'll email you some info when I figure out the parents meeting. That will be sometime in mid august.