mindlessme

I can't help this. I keep having dreams about it all week and i can't do anything about it. I miss her so much and i can tell even more how much i do in my dreams. First it was a bad dream that was just magnifying my situation with her and then i woke up and realized that it wasn't AS bad as my dream. However last nite i had a dream where everything was great, that i went back to her place and we were just sitting there watching tv and suddenly she moved in closer to me and held my hand. That right there was the best feeling but then she came in for a kiss and i could feel it. It was like the best kiss we ever had and all i could think was that i was so happy that she wanted to try again. We moved over to her bedroom and we got under her bed sheets and snuggled close and held eachother, it felt just like it did when we used to all the time. I thought to myself this was the happiest i've been in a long time and i can stay happy like this...then i heard my alarm clock and i woke up...i'm back to reality. she's not by my side, she's not feeling the same way i am. i'm back to square one.
why can't time just fly by so that i can see if we'll ever happen again...i really want to know. i know that i told myself that the only thing that i can do now is just move on.

this moving on process is moving slower than i thought.