
I thought I would start this entry off with a smile. So what if it ends in a frown.....maybe it won't though....I wonder about doing certain things that could be deemed as "inappropriate" or "taboo" or any other definition of the word "wrong" by society. I wonder that if I don't go with my gut, and instead go with the societal norm, that I will regret it for the rest of my life. I'm not looking for sympathy, or for anyone to give me motherly advice(of course opinions can't hurt), I'm just letting out what I feel, albeit very vaguely.....I have a good side and a bad side, fighting inside me right now, a by the book side, and a fuck the rules side. I don't know which one to side with. I'm hoping for some compromise between the two, but does that ever happen? I don't know.....now comes the before mentioned frown....