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Let me just say, that I was a fool last night. I got too drunk by myself and did some things to myself I feel so ashamed about now. I just felt at the end of my rope. Funny how, one day later, I feel pretty much fine. Ever have those mood swings? One day you feel fine, the next you are miserable and don't know what to do with yourself? That is me in a nutshell. The biggest dumbest nutshell you can find. One day I'll get over all of this negativity and sadness. Time, I suppose. I even wrote some stupid drunken emails and talked to people and now don't even know half of what I said. So I will not be drinking for the foreseeable future. It's just not good for you, especially when you are already down. Why do we attempt to destroy ourselves? What does it accomplish? I don't know, and I don't intend on finding out. I will deal. I'm not going to be a casualty to my own stupidity. Pain will always be a part of life. How big of a part all depends on you. With that said, tokyo sent me ten bucks in the mail today. That just floors me. If ever I needed a pickmeup, it was today. So thank you Tokyo, and thank you to everyone who has ever had a good word or a bit of support for me. Oh, and emmlaar sent me a cd yesterday, and it's damn good. So say hi to them both, because they are great people and good friends to have. Thank you all.
And instead of me asking you all questions, ask me some for once. I love questions. Later!