mindless

Okay, hello people. I haven't written in a little bit, so here is what's happening now, but ReRun and Rodge and all of them have left the building(get it?). So I didn't call Sarah, because she didn't give me the chance to. She called me at work the next day, and then acted like she wanted a cookie for it. "See? I called you didn't I? So let's go do something tonight!" So I, being the lustfilled romantic at heart, after throwing out a few jabs at the past, agreed to go. So we went out to eat, see a movie, The Butterfly Effect which, even with Ashtray Ketchup as the star, was pretty good in my opinion. I even talked her into a little kiss at the end of it all. She let me know that she was going to Texas the next day to interview for a job that she WASN'T going to take, she just "wants to see if I can get it." Fast forward to yesterday. She's back from TExas, comes into my work and we start talking, and she mentions that she is waiting to hear from the place she interviewed for. I jokingly said "you better not take it" and that's when she said "well, I can't say whether I will or not." I was kinda hit with a little petite sized curve ball there huh? It went from not taking it to possibly? So I said I thought she said she wouldn't, then she was like "well we've only been on one date, it's not like we're dating." But just a few minutes earlier she was a little miffed that I said I wasn't getting her anything for V-Day because we hadn't been dating yet. So the logic doesn't make any sense. So then I was like well there isn't any sense now at all in getting you something because that would show a bit of attachment, or feelings, and what's the point if you might be leaving anyway? Why come back into my life after a year, give me your number, then call me, blah blah blah, and then leave a week later? I may be reading too deep into this, but the last time she left me for the other guy, this time maybe for a job in Texas that pays about the same money. Am I always second best? Anyway, I've decided to just let it go where it's going to go. If she stays, good. If not, good too. Because there are some things I can't focus on unless there is no girl in my life anyway. So I'm going to look at the big fat blindingly bright side either way. I'm learning to take the good and the bad these days. I don't want to be down anymore. So there. Hi everyone. And it's six in the morning and I drank a wee bit too much rum last night. I'm hungry.