mindless

Tomorrow was another downer for The Jack. That's me. I was at work when lo and behold who walks up to me, none other than Sarah. Sarah, for those of you who don't know, which is probably all of you, is this girl who about one year ago befriended me, went out with me, but wouldn't even kiss me because her boyfriend was overseas fighting the so called good fight. Then when she finds out he's coming home, she doesn't want to see me anymore. Fast forward to today. She walks up to me and is like "hi! I'm back!" She said she finished college and got her degree and is back home. Oh, and also the guy dumped her when he got back. Ha. But the dumbass that I am, I went off on her right away. I told her off about all that she did to me, dropping me like that all of a sudden, then popping up like I was supposed to be happy to see her. She seemed really hurt and walked out in a hurry. So I caught up with her at her car and tried to apologize, telling her she had to see where I was coming from. Wouldn't you? But now I feel like crap because I was so mean. I don't like being that way. It seems like I always go out of my way to ruin relationships. I mean, with the guy out of the way, we might have actually had a chance. Maybe that's why she came in. I don't know. I just need to learn to shut my mouth. Oh, and the girl who works with me was trying to dig into my mind again. She asked me if I've ever considered taking medication for my "depression". I told her I tried it once, but I don't want fake happiness. But maybe I do need it. Who knows, maybe it could help me be a more open, see things in a new perspective kinda way. All opinions welcome.