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I just finished having a devastating conversation with my sorta ex girlfriend Jennifer. I called her and finally got her on the phone, so I used this time to get everything off my chest that I had been holding in for the last couple of months. So now I'm drinking up a bottle of wine. Anyway, I told her that it wasn't my fault that she couldn't just let go of one little two hour conversation that we had like two months ago, and that the good times we had should outway the one night of bad. Doesn't that sound right? All I did was tell her, after months of trying to dig into my past, what she wanted to hear, and all of a sudden she can't handle it? I told her to just let it go. I can't apologize anymore. I ended up telling her to never call me again, and hanging up. She called me back and started crying. I felt a little bad, but at the same time I felt she deserved it for hurting me. You can't tell someone you love them and then just push them aside like somuch trash. How can I ever trust someone again I said. You hurt me like no one else has ever done I said. We can't be friends after this I said. Sorry I'm letting all this out, but that's what I'm feeling, and the wine is getting to me. Just let me vent, that's what this is for right? She got to me. I can't let someone get to me like that again. Where do we go from here? I don't know. Wine, anyone?