mindless

Morning. it's ten fifty three and I'm up and sorta at em. I woke up because I was having a freaky dream. I was back in high school, in a class with a bunch of people, and right away, a few of them were making fun of me. I was wearing this huge jacket and it was really hot outside. They were joking about it, so I took it off. Then this girl pulled a note out of my backpack and started reading it, and it was some old love letter. I grabbed it and fell on the floor and everyone laughed at me. I then freaked out and starting beating the crap out of the dude who made fun of me. Then started throwing desks around. Damn. I think it all stems from being beat down in school so much. I hated it. But that's the past, and now I think it's helped to create this shell over me that keeps me from really being affected by other peoples barbs.....anyway, why am I self reflecting this early in the morning? Early for me anyway........
What happened yesterday put me in this awful mood that just ruined my whole day. This drug using, alcoholic jerk who used to be here about a year ago suddenly popped back up yesterday. I went out to my car and there he was in the backyard, saying hi to me. I just ignored him and got in my car and left. It totally blew my mind. I have nothing but hate for this man. I know it's bad to say, but it's true. He has not one redeeming quality. He left to go into rehab, but here he is. I thought he would never be back here. He's trying to stay on our property in a friggin camper. I already told my brother that I'm going to move out as soon as possible now because there is no way I am staying around here now. This is the worst thing to happen since he left.
Well, enough venting of frustration. I'm going to go take a therapeutic shower. THanks for reading........