mindless

I just finished watching most of Buffalo 66, and man, that is a depressing movie. But I liked it, oddly enough. I feel like I can relate to Billy Brown in that movie. Ok, so I've never been to jail, and my parents don't wish I'd never been born, but still........
Bought some food, a magazine with Marilyn Manson on the cover, talked to a girl.....bleh. What to do, what to do....I need to go buy some alcohol, that's what I need. It's been a few months. I think my liver is ready to give it another go....
My mother told me I need to care about more people than my immediate family. She says "you have to are about more than four people!" And I just don't. I tell her that I look out for us, and anyone else is just a stranger in my eyes. They can fend for themselves. They don't really care about you. Everyone else just wants something from you. That's it. Of course, that's just my jaded view of things....
Anyway, I'm going to go fend for myself for awhile. I can't expect you all to have the answers to all my thoughts and misguided views.......later........