mindless

I know whoever reads this probably doesn't wanna hear this, but it's my journal, so what the hay....I was driving to work and listening to Colds new cd, and some of the songs just hit that emotional switch in me that triggers thoughts of my dad, and I couldn't stop the tears from pouring down my cheeks until I got to work. Have you ever noticed how draining it is to cry? I was exhausted by the time I got there. I just wanted to sleep the pain away, but I couldn't. It's really difficult to go to work feeling like there is a huge dark cloud hanging over your head. How are you supposed to go in there smiling and saying good frickin morning to everyone? And when you don't they think you're being an asshole or something. But you don't even feel like taking the time to explain to each person who is offended that you have things on your mind. Ugh. It's really good to just be alone sometimes. It's just one of the those contemplative days for me I guess. And it's really dark and raining outside right now, so that probably helps. Take care people. Brighter days must be ahead. Every time it rains, I feel you holding me........