for the last two months i have and still suffering from bouts of depression, bordering ong suicidal thoughts which i am slowly winning the battle on.
I was in hospital for about five weeks, where the staff there are a great lot of people, a lot of help. and have learned a lot from. i still have my up days and down days. but i...
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I was in hospital for about five weeks, where the staff there are a great lot of people, a lot of help. and have learned a lot from. i still have my up days and down days. but i...
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Woo hoo! finally finished that job. now what to do WHAT AM I TO DO?
minceir:
between gamecube, gardening and waiying for my course to start on thursday i am bloody bored.
aaronsrod:
Why not come and join us at SGAU we would love to have you on the brissy crew.
if you would like me to let you know when we are having hookups then add me to your friends list and I will stay in touch. we are having another hookup on the 27th of Feb thanks to rocketeer bring a plate and a mate and I'll see you there for yet another fun one.
cheers
if you would like me to let you know when we are having hookups then add me to your friends list and I will stay in touch. we are having another hookup on the 27th of Feb thanks to rocketeer bring a plate and a mate and I'll see you there for yet another fun one.
cheers
I finally did it, i've quit my job. sick of cleaning after little boys and looking down toilets. No more chemicals, no more idiot supervisors telling me how to do my bloody job(at least 4 that job). thought i will miss some of the gorgeous teachers.
say to those are interested DON'T DO CLEANING FOR ANY LENGTH unles you like chemical burns and psychiatric care.
say to those are interested DON'T DO CLEANING FOR ANY LENGTH unles you like chemical burns and psychiatric care.
what does it take to be human, wise and to live your life to the fullest? when stuck in a situation where yo are wanted.
I sometimes have dark days too, days that are just so hard to face life, days when the light is just so far away. I suffer extremes of emotion so please don't judge me on this alone, writing poetry is just my way of dealing with the darkness and this to passes. Misery can have it's own comfort, because it is mine to hold and caress, this pity is of it's self an indulgence and every now and then I seem to be forced to take a wallow wether I want to or not. here is a poem I wrote recently to help me deal with a bad day.
Dark Days
I lay naked on the floor in fetal position
My heart in a cage of a miserable prison
Caressing the cold steel of the gun in my hand
Oh what shall become of this lonely man
The harsh suck of a breath drawn through a sob
The task has been set but can I finish the job
Will I really be missed why am I feeling like this
The damage is done stay true to your course
My hand grips the gun a life taken by force
If only out there someone understood why
And would accept without judging
Because I dont want to die
Just a soft touch or a kind spoken word
Not said in pity at this freak lying there
But with genuine love from someone who cares
But I am so scared and alone and unsure who to trust
So back to my gun ashes to ashes dust to dust
[Edited on Apr 25, 2005 10:21AM]