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Ugh, I feel like crap today. I just wanna go to bed and not wake up for a couple of months. Or ever.

As some of you may know, Subway is one of my favourite restaurants. And their Sweet Onion Teriyaki is like the best sandwich *ever*.
So when I learned today that they *finally* opened a restaurant in Amsterdam recently, I was psyched! It actually put me in a really up mood all afternoon.

Yeah, getting that excited about a fast food place (excuse me, "quick service...
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Hmmm, what to write about?

The past few weeks have been...interesting I guess you could call it. Went from a severe depression, to bouncing up and down, and I think at this moment I'm actually almost feeling...well, "normal".
I have a feeling life is getting better, even with the occassional rough spot. Found new friends, and one person in specific I definetely want to explore...
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I shaved my head today.....

Went from curls over my shoulder, to nothing. Takes some getting used to. I took pics, but as always I'm too lazy to resize .

Per request:

A new blog

I actually had an "up" day today. Those are rare. I even had energy to run up and down the stairs while cleaning my house and talking on the phone to Saveme. And believe it or not, I was bouncing through the house while listening to System Of A Down today, too.

I wanted to post some pictures of my house I took this...
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Tomorrow morning I have a first appointment with a psychologist...

Kinda dreading it, but also kinda looking forward to it. I haven't exactly been the most stable person around recently.

Too bad it's hazy outside. Since the weather is becoming a little less favourable this time of year, the past few days I've been hanging out at the top (16th) floor of the building instead of taking a stroll outside. On a clear day, I can see the airport, it's very close to here. Today I can't see much further than half a block though....
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What is wrong with me?

Story of my life. Girls don't want me.
I befriend girls easily, they seem to like me. We become friends, we talk. Hell, some even tell me they are in to me. But they always end up with someone else. Maybe they just think I'm nice to have around as a backup? Waiting for someone else to come around? I...
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A new blog, cause cassy bugged me about not making one in a while :p.

Not much exciting going on lately. Tired, depressed, the usual. Appointment with a psychologist in 2 weeks, maybe that will bring some change.

Oh, and I met a great girl, but she's sorta taken already . Not sure how things are gonna go with that.

I'm already planning next summer's...
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