I either have a bad cold, or my allergies are picking up again. Someone come tuck me in and make me better?
I'll try vacuuming later, see if that helps (I'm very allergic to dust mites, and I haven't been vacuuming often enough lately...). But I suspect it's a cold, I've had a nasty cough for a few days too.
I'll probably make an appointment with my dr soon anyway to get a prescription for anti-depressants, might ask for some anti-histamine while I'm at it.
Today is a fairly busy day. I have to go see my grandma in a little bit. She went to a nursing home a few weeks ago, after falling (between the table and the chair) and breaking both her ankles. I haven't visited her yet after I went to see her in the hospital. She used to live with my uncle. But she's been needing more and more care lately (her dementia is getting a lot worse), so it was time for a nursing home.
After that, I really need to clean. I put up the christmas tree yesterday (I'll put up pics when I'm not too lazy to resize them, so probably never
), so there's boxes everywhere. Then I need to vacuum the house, and clean the floors. I picked up a nice steam cleaner the other day, so that should be alright. I already put the dishes in the dishwasher yesterday (after a week...yeah, I'm bad...) and took out the trash, so I'm proud of myself. I actually did something.
I *should* also have done some homework, I have to hand in an assignment tomorrow and still haven't even started. But I think I might take a little break from class, and start again after summer.
Then tonight, my parents and brother are coming over for dinner. I'm making a couple of things, because they're all pretty picky with food. Nothing worth posting a recipe of though (I already posted a recipe for risotto a while ago, that's one of the things I'm making).
I kinda feel bad at work. Since last week, I've been working half days to help deal with my depression issues. I was just too tired to stay awake at work, let alone work on getting better. But my roommates at work are picking up the slack, and they're pretty stressed and tired, they've been swamped. So me only working half the day doesn't really feel right. I feel guilty, and they're kind of jealous about the time off I get (well, sick leave technically). Guess we all have to deal with it. If they're jealous about the half days, they should also be jealous about the sheer exhaustedness, the muscle sores, headaches, nausea, dizzyness, etc that are an every day thing too, think that's the way to look at it. But so far, I've only heard them about wanting to share the afternoons off, they weren't too keen on sharing the rest.
Like I said earlier, I really need to get myself on meds. Rationally, I've already convinced myself I need them. But emotionally, I still haven't been able to convince myself. For someone who doesn't even use asprin generally, admitting you need meds is kinda hard, plus it's kinda hard to come back on a decision that you made years ago, about not using drugs/meds/etc. Except tea, and occasionally some asprin, I'm pretty much sXe (though I don't like categorising myself). I'm working on it though, I'm getting closer. I really won't get better without those meds.
Long blog. I don't post that often, because I usually don't have much to talk about. Then every once in a while, I just post a long one and blog about like a week at a time. I'll try to blog more often, and spread it out. Keep in mind though, taht I'm a (very) lazy bastard, so don't hold me to it.
Couple of thank-you's to Avidity, Cassy and Saveme, for being there for me the past few weeks even though you had your own issues to deal with. I love you girls. I hope I helped you a bit too in return.
I sent out my christmas cards a little while ago, and I should be getting some in return soon. Looking forward to it
. I already have a nice piece of wall cleared to put them.
Ok, enough rambling for now. I'm gonna finish getting dressed, my mom should be calling me any moment now where I'm at, because we need to go see my grandma.
Muah! Kisses and hugs.
I'll try vacuuming later, see if that helps (I'm very allergic to dust mites, and I haven't been vacuuming often enough lately...). But I suspect it's a cold, I've had a nasty cough for a few days too.
I'll probably make an appointment with my dr soon anyway to get a prescription for anti-depressants, might ask for some anti-histamine while I'm at it.
Today is a fairly busy day. I have to go see my grandma in a little bit. She went to a nursing home a few weeks ago, after falling (between the table and the chair) and breaking both her ankles. I haven't visited her yet after I went to see her in the hospital. She used to live with my uncle. But she's been needing more and more care lately (her dementia is getting a lot worse), so it was time for a nursing home.
After that, I really need to clean. I put up the christmas tree yesterday (I'll put up pics when I'm not too lazy to resize them, so probably never
), so there's boxes everywhere. Then I need to vacuum the house, and clean the floors. I picked up a nice steam cleaner the other day, so that should be alright. I already put the dishes in the dishwasher yesterday (after a week...yeah, I'm bad...) and took out the trash, so I'm proud of myself. I actually did something.
I *should* also have done some homework, I have to hand in an assignment tomorrow and still haven't even started. But I think I might take a little break from class, and start again after summer.
Then tonight, my parents and brother are coming over for dinner. I'm making a couple of things, because they're all pretty picky with food. Nothing worth posting a recipe of though (I already posted a recipe for risotto a while ago, that's one of the things I'm making).
I kinda feel bad at work. Since last week, I've been working half days to help deal with my depression issues. I was just too tired to stay awake at work, let alone work on getting better. But my roommates at work are picking up the slack, and they're pretty stressed and tired, they've been swamped. So me only working half the day doesn't really feel right. I feel guilty, and they're kind of jealous about the time off I get (well, sick leave technically). Guess we all have to deal with it. If they're jealous about the half days, they should also be jealous about the sheer exhaustedness, the muscle sores, headaches, nausea, dizzyness, etc that are an every day thing too, think that's the way to look at it. But so far, I've only heard them about wanting to share the afternoons off, they weren't too keen on sharing the rest
.
Like I said earlier, I really need to get myself on meds. Rationally, I've already convinced myself I need them. But emotionally, I still haven't been able to convince myself. For someone who doesn't even use asprin generally, admitting you need meds is kinda hard, plus it's kinda hard to come back on a decision that you made years ago, about not using drugs/meds/etc. Except tea, and occasionally some asprin, I'm pretty much sXe (though I don't like categorising myself). I'm working on it though, I'm getting closer. I really won't get better without those meds.
Long blog. I don't post that often, because I usually don't have much to talk about. Then every once in a while, I just post a long one and blog about like a week at a time. I'll try to blog more often, and spread it out. Keep in mind though, taht I'm a (very) lazy bastard, so don't hold me to it
.
Couple of thank-you's to Avidity, Cassy and Saveme, for being there for me the past few weeks even though you had your own issues to deal with. I love you girls. I hope I helped you a bit too in return.
I sent out my christmas cards a little while ago, and I should be getting some in return soon. Looking forward to it
. I already have a nice piece of wall cleared to put them.
Ok, enough rambling for now
. I'm gonna finish getting dressed, my mom should be calling me any moment now where I'm at, because we need to go see my grandma.
Muah! Kisses and hugs.
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i hope it works out too. <3