milky666

Has anyone noticed that the more you learn, the more depressed you get about life? I have got to the point that nothing is worth doing any more because it seems that there is very little point to anything. I swan into my law lectures: there are all these dickhead lawyer types who are excitedly chatting about their future legal careers. That's fine - and whatever they decide to do with their lives, great - and good luck to them. And I don't say that with even a whiff of jealously. Ok, maybe I do but only from the point of view that they have goals, they still care about being a part of this society and this world whereas I am rapidly losing faith to the extent that it's really starting to scare me.

Because how can one be passionate about anything when the majority of society seems to be solely based on the attainment of wealth? Jesus, I realised something huge a couple of days ago. When I say it it's going to sound really obvious but I wonder just how much everyone has taken it for granted. Right, we have a system of employment where people work for others. The people you work for are in a business, a business is designed to make a profit. Therefore all people's time on this earth and focus is fixated on a minority making a huge amount of money and employees are rewarded for their contribution to the profit-making capacity of the business, not for any other merit. Therefore, people equip themselves with skills that ensure that they are going to be able to make the biggest difference to a business' profits and any other attribute is simply not relevant. A person's worth and status is largely determined by these kinds of skills rather than anything else.

I feel very very sad and alone. No motivation, nothing to look forward to, not much worth caring about [apart from the obvious family and friends] Where do I go?

Answers on a postcard please.

love,
a rather miserable milk xxx