milky666

I feel low. Kind of like a piece of slime on the bottom of my petit bourgeois neighbour's pond.

My mood might improve if a confident and elegant tadpole with a body of jet could come along and gobble me up, as then at least I could be part of something more beautiful.

Went to see a film today called Ae Fond Kiss. It's not...
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charley:

God damn those 'mones, they make me bonkers

glad you are feeling a little more chirpy though petal! And yes a brand new, Chamomile tea lagged liver

I canne wait!!

Sep 20, 2004

nickolai:

That's not a bad idea actually. I might start telling cute girls that I'm actually spanish or something. I'll have to work on perfecting the accent, but I reckon that it'd be worth it.

What have I been up to? - A mixture of the completely mundane and the slightly bizarre...neither of which in a particularly good way.

How about you?

I hope that you're starting to feel a little bit more chirpy now too, cherubic -cheeks.

PS - I have just had to type this message 3 times, because my gay computer keeps crashing.

Sep 20, 2004

I am back from the wilderness!

Had a lovely time the other day with kinto, the beautiful SnowElf and Razorpsych. Discovered that my new favourite tipple is g&t and have proceeded to have sneaky ones throughout the day and night

just got my rejection letter through the post from that law firm i had an interview for. in a way i'm quite relieved...
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october:

i have a suggestion... come and work with me!

this is the song i quoted in your journal the other day. it always makes me think of you for some reason

the selfish, they're all standing in line
faithing and hoping to buy themselves time
me, i figure, as each breath goes by
i only own my mind
the north is to south what the clock is to time
there's east and there's west and there's everywhere life
i know i was born and i know that i'll die
the in-between is mine
i am mine
and the feeling, it gets left behind
all the innocence lost at one time
significant behind the eyes
there's no need to hide
we're safe tonight
the ocean is full cuz everyone's crying
the full moon is looking for friends at high tide
the sorrow grows bigger when the sorrow's denied
i only know my mind
i am mine
and the meaning, it gets left behind
all the innocents lost at one time
significant behind the eyes
there's no need to hide
we're safe tonight
whoa!
and the feelings that get left behind
all the innocence broken with lies
significance between the lines
we may need to hide...
and the meanings that get left behind
all the innocents lost at one time
we're all different behind the eyes
there's no need to hide

Sep 17, 2004

october:

i'm not entirely sure why... i think it reminds me of one of our 'life' conversations

yes it's pearl jam.

a good sleep? lol. i fucking wish. i haven't slept since yesterday afternoon - my body thinks it's still in seattle *grrr*

Sep 17, 2004

Don't you just love it when the wind is howling outside, it's dark and it's cold but you're snug indoors? it reminds me of what it would be like if you were badger or ratty or mole from wind in the willows. but don't listen to me, i'm a crazy lady that's going to have 6 cats, a dog, 3 donkeys, a goat and a...
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silveronthetree:

Ah lovely to read you are going to Norway!

I went last year on a driving marathon with a nowegian native that knew all the good spots.

If you are interested I can tell you how to get here

We went via Newcastle ferry (an experience in itself), landed at bergen, drove north to the artic circle, then back down to Oslo, then to stavanger to get the ferry again.

All the best sweety

Sep 12, 2004

silveronthetree:

Ah you`re back, thought you had left us!

Sep 15, 2004

Oh my buns are soooooo tasty!! Ok, before you think that I'm some stuck up son of a crayfish, I will tell you that the buns that I'm referring to are none other than the hot cross buns that I made this afternoon. As you may have noticed, I am rapidly approaching the final phase of my granny transformation

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meekesh:

sure sweety, just let me know where/ what time! would you mind if i maybe take my bf razorpsych along?

Sep 12, 2004

nickolai:

"little one"?? - didn't I tell you that those rumours about the size of my penis were totally untrue! jees you have to keep raking it up don't you!

Thanks for your other advice. I think you're probably absolutely right Milkers. I do need to start taking more action, for sure.

Have you been having a nice weekend? did you find that elusive excitement yet?

Sep 12, 2004

What a wonderful time of the year: summer but with the white glare of autumn and the sting of the wind.

Yesterday I did my interview and I don't think I'll get the training contract but I had a really fun time- sick isn't it?! How can someone derive pleasure from a one hour written test on acquisitions of companies, a 45 minute critical thinking...
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october:

ohhh oyu made caz cross. ooops./

Sep 9, 2004

nickolai:

I have been in very close contact with some bloody huge Jellyfish! - it was in the sea in Mississippi. I was told that if they sting you it really hurts and can be a little dangerous, so I pretty quickly retreated out of the water as soon as I noticed how many of them there were!

Hope you're doing alright cutie.

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Sep 10, 2004

Life has been so strange this year. For the first time in my life I'm starting to understand who I really am. I have priorities- they are not work, they are not people who go out of their way to exert a negative influence over me, and the excessive worry about things which had such a grip on me is starting to wither away.

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kinto:

^^^ take your place in the queue, Elfie

So... that interview? Are you starting your big time property lawyer life already?

Sep 7, 2004

soulpower:

hello
yes it's really true that i love henry. but you musn't tell him or james.
im totally in love and missing him already.my heart will never love again. *sigh*

having a great time with october. spent lots today on make up. bad.

Sep 7, 2004

woo hoo! the exam is over! three hours in which to prove myself. three hours in which i could have proved myself better...

but i know i've passed- at least with a 2:2 in it so i'm happy, and now at least my life can go on!

the next stage is a job interview on tuesday which i have to swot up on

not happy...
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anartstar:

congrats on the exam

hope the interview goes swimingly!!

cheers for the post milky really cheered me up

thanx x

enjoy ur holidays - jus kick bac and relax -

gotta go pack -

Sep 3, 2004

october:

well done for getting the exam out of the way, i'm sure you did great

it's all over now

good luck with the job interview and i hope you get to go on those holidays you mentioned. cornwall - i'm jealous!

Sep 3, 2004

holy guacamole, did anyone see neighbours last night?! that fateful kiss between sooz and the priest. very curious but strangely arousing

haha!

well, back in the place that is called bristolio holio [by me] my exam is on friday and at this point in time i don;t really give one, two or even three hoots about it. good news in my life. well, managed to...
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nickolai:

Lots and lots of good luck and best wishes for the exam tomorrow Milky!

Sep 2, 2004

nonchalance:

Hope the exam was ok (I know you'll be checking AFTER the exam)

Welcome back to Bristol! I'm missing Octy, i need you to slap some sense into me and tell me how terrible she is!

Preferably while i cook you a roast dinner to make you feel better about your ongoing feeling shit-ness. I'm working in the council house at the bottom of Park St now so i can drop in after work, maybe with good films to keep you alive!

Arse about the bins, Oct was of the opinion that it was Sarah's turn to take them out, so the place prob smelled just as bad before she left!

Ciao ciao!

Sep 2, 2004

Ok dudes, I've had it with this "let's be virtuous and revise like a beast" crap. It's not cool, it's not fun and it's just not happening.

It's been a tough couple of weeks culminating in yesterday, which was probably the worst for a long time. I've been ill for a few months now with an undiagnosed kidney problem

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october:

i'd just like to point out that that was entirely nonchalances idea - not mine!

cane toads huh? can you bring this video back to bristol with you?

hope you're feeling better now. much love honey

Aug 31, 2004

silveronthetree:

Hi sweety,

Yes I am very cultured (not really!).

keep trying on your health thing, get a bastard to see you!

If you are willing, I have a friend (he`s 67 and into his health)that will get you an appointment somewhere in London. I need to know more about the complaint though.

Yes middle age is creeping in, I`m 32, and I now have definate limits. My back aches a lot, I can`t shove in to myself any food that I want anymore, cuts take longer to heal, when the sun comes up so do I, even on the weekend(annoying), I`ve got hairs where there were none, and I get gut rot from too much coffee. Nice.

Lots of love to ya

Aug 31, 2004