miketheevil1

I hate myself sometimes...
I broke 2 promises to someone very special to me in less than 2 days. I didn't mean to.... things are just fucked up right now. I know in my head that she knows that, but in my heart it hurts to know that I hurt her. I am a good person, I never intentionally hurt anyone, I love the important people in my life....I just hope she knows how important she is. The last thing I want is to drive her away from me. I have alot of making up to do! I don't want her to think this will be a regular thing... but, it's the first time I have hurt her and I know she has been hurt before. It can be hard to trust people and believe people when others have fucked you over before. I now need to prove myself to her and I know this. It just hurts me SO much to even think that I am one of those people in her life. I want to be the one who she can come to and count on. But, I just acted like every other guy she has dealt with in the past. The one thing I promised her was that I wasn't like the other guys..... I know the difference between intentional lies and unintentional lies. I know that is what makes me different. I would never intentionally hurt her. But, I also know how hard it must be for her to believe that right now. I WILL make this up to her. I won't let my stupidity drive away someone that I really, really want and need in my life.
I'm sorry and I love you!