I had forgotton how lonely it is when you are all by your self. Chad is gone for a week and a half, no friends in this dumb town. I am keeping myself medicated with lots of japanese movies, anime, X Japan, and Dir En Grey. This last week has really taken its toll on me. Betrayal hurts. I am going back to my old ways. No one liked me, but atleast my chest didn't ache so much. My eyes burn so bad, I have to get up and get going. I am going to get my nails done. And fix my hair. Thanks, Dir En Grey, you helped me figure out what to do. 
betrayal does hurt so do many other heartaches ium sorry you feel so bad
i know how being without friends or a love is. it rather blows -hugs tight-
feel better soon.