I had forgotton how lonely it is when you are all by your self. Chad is gone for a week and a half, no friends in this dumb town. I am keeping myself medicated with lots of japanese movies, anime, X Japan, and Dir En Grey. This last week has really taken its toll on me. Betrayal hurts. I am going back to my old ways. No one liked me, but atleast my chest didn't ache so much. My eyes burn so bad, I have to get up and get going. I am going to get my nails done. And fix my hair. Thanks, Dir En Grey, you helped me figure out what to do.
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betrayal does hurt so do many other heartaches ium sorry you feel so bad
i know how being without friends or a love is. it rather blows -hugs tight-
feel better soon.