Wednesday Sep 21, 2005

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I'm freaking out again. calm calm calm calm calm.

I've certainly been a mess recently. I'm about ready to jump ship back to Japan at this point. spaz spaz spaz.
sixsixty:
you're totally going crazy. i almost went really crazy recently, i think it might be in the air or the stars. i just had to calm things down in my life and it all seems to be getting better.
sixsixty:
yeah i had the same thing happen to me. i've been depressed before, whatever. but this was different. i was just lost in my head. i knew everything was ok and i knew the answers to everything, but it all seemed wrong in my head. i don't know. i do know i was not the only one feeling like this. a bunch of people have been feeling very off lately.

Friday Sep 16, 2005

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yonderboy:
I'm home but I think I have a small Asian man living upstairs and I'm pretty sure he's not making me coconut pudding and annin tofu with fresh blackberries and jasmine tea...

and I'm certain that he's not as cute as you...
davel:
oh my, i was drunk, wasn't i?
shocked

Thursday Sep 15, 2005

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so work is.. not so good. It's nothing that won't get fixed, so there is no consoling me over it - it's just stressful in an annoying completely dumbfounded by how pooped out* the situation is.

I worked all morning and afternoon without leaving my room, when i finally left after some more stress shopping (I'm getting close to 3k this month... you can tell...
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frenchy:
To me swearing is like dysphemisms. It should emphasise a statement, not insult. I like swearing, esp. in english eheh!
estrada:
I no longer swear as much as I used to several years back.

I still curse but most of the time I say things like gosh darn it or crud/crap/cripes.

Thursday Sep 15, 2005

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I've been working all day - I haven't let my room all day... and now I'm going to clean up because I need to keep busy for a few hours.

I have a few errands to run too, maybe off to the supermarket... boy do I wish I had a lot of kitchen stuff. or dishes. or cups. or, you know, ANYTHING.




stress. stomach. empty.
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davel:
just have sex with men with tiny, tiny dicksproblem solved!
come down here and i'll show you.
davel:
obligatory link

Wednesday Sep 14, 2005

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today i got three packages.

yesterday I bought a ton of things from Japan.
today I bought more things from the US and Canada.


I am feeling very anti-social. Today is a live in the bed day - things aren't looking up. I didn't do it - really. just work troubles.





I agreed to go to dinner. It's the least I can do... i want...
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davel:

instability loves something to be dependent on.

that's all sorts of true.

maybe instead of waiting for the unstable boys to come after you, you should go after the stable boys.
and by stable i don't mean boring canadian.
davel:
also, by stable boys i mean neither gigolos nor cowhands.
just to be clear.

Wednesday Sep 14, 2005

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I spent the evening sniffing my panties.


more to come later.
punt:
weird. I did too.
davel:
let me know if you need any help with that.

Tuesday Sep 13, 2005

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why is it that the only person who was sorta creepy felt a deep connection with me? Why didn't one of the awesome weirdos talk to me?

why did I order 1k worth of clothing from Japan? why do my panties smell of pee, but not of my own? (I don't know if this is worse or better than it being mine)

I'm going back...
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davel:
no it'll be the frickin' postal service or modest mouse or some shit like that tongue
yonderboy:
was it? *see above*

Sunday Sep 11, 2005

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I'm not where I thought I would be.
--- not that it's bad. my life, that is.

I'd like to do something about it.
--- motivation is hard to come by.

I've never been so bad off that I couldn't shake it off.
--- or just move.



we'll see.
--- until then, I'm going to palm the cat's face.
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noelani:
Cute victorian loli works too! Or just plain ol goth (just to note, I prefer the victorian loli over the plain ol goth wink ). Either way you should come out with us tonight.

School is always an option. I recommend people going to school even when they've finished. Just take one class on something you're either really interested in or know nothing at all about. It's a good way to keep your mind going. I'm waiting to hear back from professors to see if I can add some classes for this semester.

estrada:
Motivation is a hard thing to find, let alone sustain.

Saturday Sep 10, 2005

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not that I should really be thinking about this....
but I want to go back to tokyo for a week or so. a week in tokyo time, so tuesday - thursday of the next week or something. I can TECHNICALLY afford it, but it'll be tight.

maybe I should ask for an advance.

maybe I should be a hostess.

maybe I should starve.

maybe I...
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davel:
we need tortilla chips!

Friday Sep 09, 2005

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it looks pretty yucky outside... which is good because I have a lot of work to do.

I have a food craving... sigh. I usually don't, but today, I crave.
grayblue:
both, actually.... confused
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