Eric is driving me crazy.
He can't study in the mornings because of work: I am doing his work and my work now, since the day we got back, I have been working two jobs so he can study.
He can't study in the afternoons because I want to go out. If we do, I have to listen to him whine about being taken away from his studies, which is all my fault for wanting to go out.
He can't study in the afternoons if we stay in because he can't focus except in the mornings.... which now because I'm doing his work for him, I'm up at 6:30am working his job and my job, and he's sleeping in... or like the past few days, I catch him sleeping while pretending to read his bio book.
He can't study in the evenings because he can't focus at night.... so instead of being useful, I do his job while he "looks guilty" and doesn't do anything at all.
It's my fault he can't study because he's here. If he were at home, he could study... because he'd have work and his mom making him run errnads, and therefore, a million more things to do than he does with me doing his job and running all the errands for him?
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At lunch yesterday, where I didn't eat because he specifically chose a place that I told him I couldn't eat at because it's 100% deep fried food and so I haven't eaten since Tuesday lunch (it's thursday now) I snapped.
I told him that no matter where he was, who he was with, what he had to do, he would find an excuse NOT to study because he didn't want to. But he would NEVER be his fault. if it's not me for taking him to japan, it's work for taking his time, if it's not work because I'm doing it, it's the time of fucking day, if it's not the time of day, it's "guilt" keeping him from focusing. I told him if he's not going to fucking study with the time I give him, of which he wouldn't have AT ALL if he were in CA, that he should at least go out and enjoy Tokyo because it's better than sulking to yourself about how everything keeps you from studying and NOT studying. At least have as good time if you're going to bitch about how you can'at get anything done.
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I spent 3 hours doing what it takes Eric 6 hours to do. I left him with 3 confusing emails that I couldn't answer... he spent 2, TWO FULL HOURS doing them. I did 50 emails in 3 hours, he does 3 emails in TWO HOURS?
In the end, I think the reason why Eric can't study is because he's mentally retarded and there is no brain to fill with information. It's just a whiney, complaining, world-blaming, self-loving bit of throbbing mass of what should be brain, but is really just pork fat from eating too much crap.
5 second ago, I asked him what hew as doing "emails" "I didn't leave you many" "another one came in" "I can do it" "but.." "FUCKING STUDY ERIC. I don't want to hear you WHINE about how you didn't have time in the morning to do it." "I won't" "Just. Fucking. Study."
he's looking at his book upset now. I'm sure he's complaining in his head about how he can't study/focus because I'm mean.
ps. he's going out to dinner tonight with a friend.... it'll be all my fault somehow that he decided to do this.
He can't study in the mornings because of work: I am doing his work and my work now, since the day we got back, I have been working two jobs so he can study.
He can't study in the afternoons because I want to go out. If we do, I have to listen to him whine about being taken away from his studies, which is all my fault for wanting to go out.
He can't study in the afternoons if we stay in because he can't focus except in the mornings.... which now because I'm doing his work for him, I'm up at 6:30am working his job and my job, and he's sleeping in... or like the past few days, I catch him sleeping while pretending to read his bio book.
He can't study in the evenings because he can't focus at night.... so instead of being useful, I do his job while he "looks guilty" and doesn't do anything at all.
It's my fault he can't study because he's here. If he were at home, he could study... because he'd have work and his mom making him run errnads, and therefore, a million more things to do than he does with me doing his job and running all the errands for him?
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At lunch yesterday, where I didn't eat because he specifically chose a place that I told him I couldn't eat at because it's 100% deep fried food and so I haven't eaten since Tuesday lunch (it's thursday now) I snapped.
I told him that no matter where he was, who he was with, what he had to do, he would find an excuse NOT to study because he didn't want to. But he would NEVER be his fault. if it's not me for taking him to japan, it's work for taking his time, if it's not work because I'm doing it, it's the time of fucking day, if it's not the time of day, it's "guilt" keeping him from focusing. I told him if he's not going to fucking study with the time I give him, of which he wouldn't have AT ALL if he were in CA, that he should at least go out and enjoy Tokyo because it's better than sulking to yourself about how everything keeps you from studying and NOT studying. At least have as good time if you're going to bitch about how you can'at get anything done.
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I spent 3 hours doing what it takes Eric 6 hours to do. I left him with 3 confusing emails that I couldn't answer... he spent 2, TWO FULL HOURS doing them. I did 50 emails in 3 hours, he does 3 emails in TWO HOURS?
In the end, I think the reason why Eric can't study is because he's mentally retarded and there is no brain to fill with information. It's just a whiney, complaining, world-blaming, self-loving bit of throbbing mass of what should be brain, but is really just pork fat from eating too much crap.
5 second ago, I asked him what hew as doing "emails" "I didn't leave you many" "another one came in" "I can do it" "but.." "FUCKING STUDY ERIC. I don't want to hear you WHINE about how you didn't have time in the morning to do it." "I won't" "Just. Fucking. Study."
he's looking at his book upset now. I'm sure he's complaining in his head about how he can't study/focus because I'm mean.
ps. he's going out to dinner tonight with a friend.... it'll be all my fault somehow that he decided to do this.
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Big hugs to yourself though and keep your chin up