midfuckepiphany

hi everyone,
slowly emerging from basketcase land. ShivasShakti and Rude_Ruca: thanks so much for your support. you guys rock.

yeah, friday through sunday i totally had the wind knocked out of me. by monday, numbness was beginning to set in, and by tuesday i just about had my head together enough to pick up the weapon and charge forward again; i know that's what dad would have wanted.

i've been channeling all my energies into making sure everything he wanted done after his death gets done. as many people on this site have probably experienced, when these things happen there are a billion details to see to afterward. the guy had the rationality and presence of mind to leave explicit written directions on his computer, down to the smallest detail, of what to do after his death. so, yeah, i'm working with his wife to make sure it all gets done. it's been tricky because she is understandably very distraught, but it has to get done. i'm thinking the whole process could take about three months. only when it all gets wrapped up will i really feel free to take a deep breath and truly grieve for dad and reflect on his life. i'll eulogize him properly then.

but for now, work to be done ...