Funny how things turn out in life, although you try to be the best "you" you can be, the world does enjoy throwing you the most bizarre loops, people at work stealing your ideas, people around you basically forgetting who you are, even your own sister replacing you with a brand new brother (from her father's side) after 25 years.
After the, shall we say 'interesting', last couple of months I'm glad I have my wife and 3 sons. It would be churlish to say that my life has had nothing but a downward spiral recently, but nonetheless, outside of my home life, I could easily state that life has decided that I deserve little less than struggle and hardship.
I try so hard to be everything that is needed of me, but nobody but my wife (God bless her. Or for any non religious types, thanks to my wife for being unique) seems to be able to see anything but "big scary guy" trying to be where he isn't wanted. Although this admittedly seems like an attention seeking thing, and hey, I'm drunk, maybe it is, I honestly think that suicidegirls is the best place to rant and get it out there, you all seem such kind people, and I have such huge wounds right now.
I'm sorry to anyone that is annoyed by this, I do try to keep these things to myself usually, but I have ingested the better part of a bottle of port, shouted at a bunch of people at my work, had to see my sister's new half brother, and deal with the father of my nephew's who is unhappy with my sister's behaviour and I guess I'm just hoping someone, somewhere can send a little spiritual support, cos I really need it 😞