Ok, Michelle is freaking out.
I over analyze everything and I fucking hate it.
The boy of topic as of late came over tonight and we watched movies and he still didn't kiss me.
He told me he has a bad case of OCD and now Im worried its one of those bad bad cases that takes over your life.
Im starting to think maybe Im the one whos crazy and this guy is perfectly fine. I think part of me is waiting for that one big secret that'll ruin all chances at anything with him.
I think I'm damning myself to be alone because I cant relax and let something happen. But I also cant ignore it when my stomach tells me "red flag! red flag!"
UURrrgghhh.
I hate all of my fucking jumping to conclusions, wanting anwsers, wanting to be in control when I just... cant be.
I over analyze everything and I fucking hate it.
The boy of topic as of late came over tonight and we watched movies and he still didn't kiss me.
He told me he has a bad case of OCD and now Im worried its one of those bad bad cases that takes over your life.
Im starting to think maybe Im the one whos crazy and this guy is perfectly fine. I think part of me is waiting for that one big secret that'll ruin all chances at anything with him.
I think I'm damning myself to be alone because I cant relax and let something happen. But I also cant ignore it when my stomach tells me "red flag! red flag!"
UURrrgghhh.
I hate all of my fucking jumping to conclusions, wanting anwsers, wanting to be in control when I just... cant be.VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
[Edited on Aug 06, 2004 11:13AM]