michelealissa

update- something has been off with me lately. i cry at movie previews, i think about how no one lives forever, i've been craving the strangest foods and things. work has been so boring... i swear the clock is ticking backwards. all of these goals i was so happy to set and excited to achieve and all i do is sleep all day and watch crappy movies. then go to work and go to sleep... and start the cycle over. THIS IS WHY IM ON MEDICATION. free motivation!!! i haven't written anything interesting in days, i look horrible in all of my clothing and am tempted to quit smoking because it tastes so bad right now. my stomach is bugging me all the time and i know that only i can get myself out of this. this... crappy slumpy.. crappy phase of crap. i feel so crappy in fact that i dont even care what comes out of my mouth right now, and that isn't like me at all.

so, that's all. i want to go home and watch Dead Like Me on DVD. i need to buy myself a DVD player and i need to decide what i want to do for my birthday. my birthday is on February 4th... i'm going to be 20. I wonder if anything has significantly changed since my last birthday... other than my hair color and location.