I've been asking myself, "What is the point in having a relationship?" I don't want to get married. I don't want to have kids. I like to be alone alot. I'm not sure if I could love anything more than I love music.
Yet I find myself hoping that I'll stay in love with my girlfriend. And her with me. That a deeper connection somehow forms. A connection that runs so deep that I may reach the center of the earth. Where the core will ingulf me in flames, searing my skin so that the love shall never seep out.
But her lack of intensity has me building a defense. So much so that my loins are craving the aroma of lust.
I feel as though it may be inevitable that I slip on this banana peel. Sending me down a flight of stairs the likes of which Hades himself could never comprehend.
I want to talk to her. But I don't want her to change because I want her to. I want all decisions to change to sprout from her mind.
It seems, until now, it is a delimna that I have sought to avoid.
So while I continue to avoid....I bought a pair of these.
Yet I find myself hoping that I'll stay in love with my girlfriend. And her with me. That a deeper connection somehow forms. A connection that runs so deep that I may reach the center of the earth. Where the core will ingulf me in flames, searing my skin so that the love shall never seep out.
But her lack of intensity has me building a defense. So much so that my loins are craving the aroma of lust.
I feel as though it may be inevitable that I slip on this banana peel. Sending me down a flight of stairs the likes of which Hades himself could never comprehend.
I want to talk to her. But I don't want her to change because I want her to. I want all decisions to change to sprout from her mind.
It seems, until now, it is a delimna that I have sought to avoid.
So while I continue to avoid....I bought a pair of these.
follow your gut instincts, don't push something off because your afraid of the results. sometimes the less desired results can be the best for you!