mia

I'm certain that during the course of my 32 years, I've made mistakes and hurt people. Sometimes without even being aware of it, sometimes knowing there would be consequences. I don't think anyone's life just travels along on cruise without any road construction, honestly.

There were a couple of times when I asked myself quite seriously why I bothered. Sometimes "things" seemed like more trouble than what it's worth. Some of the choices I made were selfish, and many of them I still pay for today... even if that payment just means that someone I used to be close with is no longer a part of my life. Those are the saddest consequences of all, and coming to the realization of being to blame is a pretty lousy feeling.

And despite being a pessimist by nature, I am also continually curious about life in general. I am always thinking about what COULD be... tomorrow. That is what keeps me going, for the most part. Hope. Shit gets fucked up... but I always have hope. And my hope for today is that you always have some as well. We can't change what has occured... what we've done in the past. Can't even take back yesterday (and there's plenty of times when that'd be pretty desirable). Guilt... how to deal with it? Reconcile to the source of it. And even if that doesn't work, you can at least know that you tried. Time helps. Being aware of mistakes and attempting to not repeat them is the goal, I suppose. The emotional baggage is ours to deal with as best we can as humans. Hug your best friend. Talk about it.

Thanks for sending me the greatest comment I have ever received!!!! I laughed out loud!

You made my evening lots better...so I have to return the favor...and I will.


Have a great day and smile that oh soo intoxicating smile that you have!


Idaho is super lucky!