mia

She woke up and decided. No more. This is not for me. The tastes of acid and self loathing will only subside if I quit. I will not miss the discomfort. I will not miss the pain I cause. I will not miss anything at all. I cannot be perfect, I can only get better though.

Happy Holidays.

This was a good time for me to think about things that are most important to me. Number one, me. Everything else falls into place accordingly. Tell people how you really feel about them... that is if there is anything to tell.


-Down in the gallows, the darkness grows
It's hard to see through the hearts of them
If you see the light, call down below
where I'll be moving and sorting out our fears

but how long will we hold on to a light so dim.
-BlackHeartProcession

The glint of the lighthouse is not enough to see. I don't want to hold on to something that is not worth straining my eyes and taking on water. Alcohol makes some people worse, far worse. I am some people, I will not let this control me for one more day.