mia

I ate my bottle of vicatin tonight... just to kill the pain. they are pain killers, aren't they? I think so.. it seems to be working so far.. only been about 15 minutes though.. damn... I will be performing at Sinferno at Dante's this sunday. my stomach is rumbling.. it hates vicatin. pretty pathetic if you ask me. well, on a brighter note.. I have been back at work for a couple days.. sucks as usual.
whoa.. I think my head is starting to feel really fuzzy. I'll just keep typing until I pass out I guess. and maybe turn on some music.. let's see what plays on random..
the song that started playing is "collapse".. by Sparta. aww.. sweet dude. My room is still soooo hot. It's 3:45 am and still sweltering. I can't believe it's so hot right now. I hope I can wake up before 4 pm tomorrow.. you know.. work.. daily grind and whatnot.
I guess some people thought I would never found out what they said. but I did.
I need to go to Idaho and get tattood. maybe that'll make me feel better. It's been over 4 months... longest I've ever gone without ink.... or seeing my tattoo artist. yeah.. vicatin is making me feel all fuzzy right now.
...really.
But for now I feel better.
Ahh, but now the Cure is playing. It's dark in my room.. My cat is wondering why it's so hot in here. fuzzy.
Have you ever wanted to trash someone's room and then write on the walls with lipstick? It's kinda fun. Lemme tell ya. no.. not really. My cat is meowing right now. I can't wait for gasmaskboy to get here... come on. It'll be t-minus 10 days.. well, yeah, technically because it's after midnight.. right?
Completely sober Mia.. right now.. crazy as all hell.. oh, wait, I guess not sober. There's a little case of the vicatin. ...nevermind then, I suppose.
...getting very close to passing out right now..
but, not really. today was soooo hot, I couldn't even think of drinking beer... I walked around the greater Portland area for about 3 or 4 hours.. by myself. ...the greater area. The birds are already chirping.. I think there's sprinklers coming on too. One of my neighbors has the strobe light on.. I think they have it on every night.. I can see it from my window. hmm.. I have some ibuprophen.. naw.. not tonight. I'll save that for later...
Ok, now Aretha Franklin is playing. It reminds me of my sister.. one of the greatest singers in the whole world.. but very shy too! Crazy. but she loves to sing Aretha Franklin.
I hate not having money.
I hate being sad.
I hate being really hot in my apartment.
...but I love my cat... Sophie.
People I love or care deeply about: too many to list I suppose.
I had a dream last night that this devil/demon came to life by taking almost everyone in the worlds life.. except mine and a select few. I was part of the group.
In order to get to his lair.. we had to have tokens.. we had swords.. we put these tokens in the swords and waved them above our heads to be magically whisked away.. Ok..
Now.. concentrating makes me want to pass out.. gotta go..
Ciao- Mia.