metta

It's official. i am completely losing my mind.
no no.. I am serious.

I cant explain it i just am.

Nothing weird has been going on....businees as usual.

I was seeing this guy for a couple of weeks.... :|

I liked him at first but then I realized he was "Too into me'.. if you can be that sort of way...
I felt as if he wanted a serious relationship...
I just wasnt ready for that.

ok wait... scratch that. I do want a realtionship.. just not with him.

I was going to just avoid him or write him an email but I decided the best thing to do was to tell him over the phone.

I felt like an ass. I feel like I may have lead him asray in how he thought i was feeling.

Rejection sucks.. rejectiong someone sucks more.

He did nice things. The nice things kinda creeped me out.
He used to send me snippets of songs and say he was reminded of me when he heard them......

that would be romantic if we had been dating for longer than a week :|

I want to date a nice guy but one who has enough sense to tell me to fuck off when I am being stupid.