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must find some what to focus on self.

must find some way to help myself concentrate and think.

must find some way not to think or worry about her.

must find way to make forward progress.

must find some way to make life plans without plugging her into equation.

must find some way to stop thinking about when we might talk again.

must find some way to stop thinking about her entirely.

must find some way to be me, just me, and only me, a completely and totally independent me.

must for some way for that me to be the only me.

must find way not to care about what she thinks or feels...because i did no wrong. and i should not allow her to affect me.

must find some way to be happy with myself because i am myself.

must find some sort of confidence in who i am...that this is not my fault. that i am actually desireable.

am i a catch? am i desireable? am i someone who can meet more than one person in his life? and how can i turn this focus upon myself, so that i can make forward progress, so that i can make room for someone else, so that i can insulate myself from any more pain from this woman?

how can i turn my eyes forward, when i want to stay? i guess the reao question is, how can i make myself WANT to go forward?



stupid woman.